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i heave a little sigh for you.....
*listens to freckles*
*so today i learned the basics of magic. complicated game with a lot of complicated math.
*we had a party in spanish celebrating august and january birthdays. i had no one to talk to, so it wasn't really that fun.
*we read a poem in lit. that i didnt like, though it expressed some of my feelings.
*once again i had a good time at lunch. i absolutely love sitting with carrie, bianka, yemi, and andy. its so much fun! it beats the hell outta my corner.
*oh yeah! how could i forget! andy gave me a real hug today! its the first time he's ever given me one of those! its a miracle. now, if only he didn't wait for me to ask him...nah, thats asking for too much... ^^;;
*anthro was pretty good. the worst thing about it is that all the china stuff made me nostalgic about the good ol' days with keru and han and amy again. good stuff about it was that i got to sit next to andy. : ) like, everyone hates me in there now because i was the first one to send in the correct answer.
*geom. was terrible. i had no earthly idea what the test was about. omg, when mr grant was passing out tests, he handed one to me and he said "oh my god!" and then he walked off. i had no idea what he did that for. Then when he passed out the other sheet for the test, when he got to my desk, he muttered something. it was either "here you go" or "very good". if it was the latter, lets hope he meant how i was doing on the test. when i went up to hand him my test, he said "thats a very...interesting outfit jessica" not knowing what to make of that, i thanked him. scary shit, man.
*the prep rally wasn't that interesting until it got to the faculty/students b-ball game. amazingly, faculty won. Miss Robinson (the lady who has a penis) sucked. I say that Mr E., B-Rob, and Dr. Lynch should've played. That would've been great. i sat next to andy and susanne and near merrick, liz, and shawn. *shudder* taylor was behind me......
*andy gave me a magic card. i feel bad about it though, because now he has to replace the card, *tear* but its really cool, and i like its quote. it applies to me in a certain sense.
*i also like andys quote about love: "how can anything so foolish be so powerful?"
*well, i rode the bus home for the first time in forever. i miss shawns old hair. it sucks that he had to cut it. its like, if bianka cut her hair. it just wouldnt be the same.....
*i love my dog. he's the sweetest animal in the world, and he's always so excited to see me. the only one who ever is truly happy to see me. he doesnt care if i'm ugly or fat or a bad person. he loves me because i'm me. if only there was a human out there in the world like that, just for me.....
*i came home and got the piss scared out of me cuz the vacuum cleaner somehow turned itself on.....t'was odd.
*played some ten. then i got bored of it and just let myself die so i could hear the pretty game over music.
*i tried calling amy, but she wasnt home.
*liz called and wanted to go to swayzes. in the end, no one could make it, not even me. i'm grounded cuz of my grades.
*i called keru b/c liz told me to. it was an......ackward conversation. she thought i was someone named emily at first. i was hurt. oh well.
*then i made a mess in my room from all the clothes i was trying on to see if they still fit. nope, they're still too tight cuz i'm too chunky.
*AIM won't let me sign on and it makes me sad.
i'm writing a rant/poem right now and a poem called "faceless", and i drew a picture to go along with it, but its not very good.
i wonder.....do i still miss eric, now that i feel for another?
or, do I feel for another?
love is so confusing. its such a waste of energy.
i feel bad whenever bianka tells me one of her merrick stories of when they were best friends. i feel like i stole bianka from merrick. same with andy. i feel like a terrible person. hell, i am a terrible person.
if white people who act black are called wiggers, and mexicans who act black are called miggers (i think, don't jump on my back if i'm wrong), then what do you call chinese people who act black?
...........where's oscar?
we looked up three words in class today: pity, compassion, and sympathy.
Synonyms:pity, compassion, commiseration, sympathy, condolence, empathy These nouns signify kindly concern aroused by the misfortune, affliction, or suffering of another. Pity often implies a feeling of sorrow that inclines one to help or to show mercy: felt pity for the outcast. Compassion denotes deep awareness of the suffering of another and the wish to relieve it: ?Compassion is not weakness, and concern for the unfortunate is not socialism? (Hubert H. Humphrey). Commiseration signifies the expression of pity or sorrow: expressed their commiseration over the failure of the experiment. Sympathy denotes the act of or capacity for sharing in the sorrows or troubles of another: ?They had little sympathy to spare for their unfortunate enemies? (William Hickling Prescott). Condolence is a formal, conventional expression of pity, usually to relatives upon a death: extending condolences to the bereaved family. Empathy is an identification with and understanding of another's situation, feelings, and motives: Having changed schools several times as a child, I feel empathy for the transfer students.
and that is why i do not pity. that is why i'm not compassionate. however, i sympathize. Commiseration is for the weak and ignorant. Condolance: Thou can shoveth thy proper English upeth my arse, fuckers. Empathy is too loose of a word for me.
I can only sympathize. And when I do, i do not really pity whomever I can sympathize with. If I had to go through it, they'll go through it too, and live with it. Fuckers.
l'heureux est morte
la vie est courte
adorer, je ne peux,
donc la mort, je veux
-shawn
isnt that a great poem? he's really good. i'm torn up about who's poem i should use for my unpublished poem in my project. i want to use one of bianka's, because she's such a good author and my best friend. i want to use one of shawn's because they're so personal. ever "mr bear". i want to use one of nataly's to show mrs sanford that i am acquainted with one of her most favorite students ever. i want to use one of eric's that he wrote about me.......her poison lips, her poison touch. I can never forget that one line. I've forgotten the rest of the words, but that one line will stick in my head forever.
andy's so perverted.
Lavamancer84: rocket?
SallyOfRhapsody: hmm?
Lavamancer84: hand in my pocket, waitin' for my rocket to come
SallyOfRhapsody: heheh yeah great song
Lavamancer84: is that the euphamism i think it is?
SallyOfRhapsody: depends on what the fuck euphanism means
Lavamancer84: like metaphor
SallyOfRhapsody: oh, well, what "euphanism" do you think it is?
Lavamancer84: well what do you mean it to be
SallyOfRhapsody: it means whatever you think it means
Lavamancer84: wholly shit
SallyOfRhapsody: O.o
SallyOfRhapsody: unless you're thinking perverted
Lavamancer84: duh
SallyOfRhapsody: then you're faaaar off.
Lavamancer84: o
SallyOfRhapsody: geez i had no clue you were this perverted.
Lavamancer84: its jsut one thing i heard on the radio one time
SallyOfRhapsody: really?! they play that song on the radio?!
Lavamancer84: one of Dr suess's worst books "My Poket Rocket Needs a Socket"
SallyOfRhapsody: oh
SallyOfRhapsody: nvr mind
SallyOfRhapsody: no nothing to do with dr suess
Lavamancer84: well taht too was a euphamism
SallyOfRhapsody: haha yeah
SallyOfRhapsody: but no.
Lavamancer84: and you don't want to reaad guys minds
Lavamancer84: at least not mine
Lavamancer84: trust me
SallyOfRhapsody: O.O
kris wasn't at school today so i couldnt give him that hug i owe him.
oh well.
and i'm also debating about which song lyrics i should use for the poetry project. well, at least i'm not at a loss for poems.....
Lavamancer84: the way to a guys mind....
Lavamancer84: is through his scalp
SallyOfRhapsody: ha ha ha.
Lavamancer84: get a drill and a rool of duct tape amd meet me at school on mon
Lavamancer84: THIS SHALL BE KNOWEN AS OPERATION DESERT CLAM
.....i miss oscar. he needs to come back......*tear*
well, i'm going to go and lament on how much i suck and how lonely i am.
<3 (but not really)
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