| Current mood: |  happy |
| Current music: | You Know My Name ~ Chris Cornell (in my head) |
It's been more than a month since I updated, and it doesn't even feel like the month has even passed. Time seems to be on overdrive now, mocking me by zooming by faster than it should be at a time where I'm feeling horribly content with the world. There are so many problems that I could conceivably pick out - the dramatically reduced lack of contact with my friends from Singapore, for one, or how Singaporeans don't really speak British English, or how I hate my roommate and want to slam her face against the table and watch her brains splatter across the wall - but even despite all of these and more, I'm content. I'm happy with life. I have a major exam coming up on Tuesday, but I'm not feeling stressed. A little overwhelmed, yes, and worried that I won't be able to make it, yes, but not unhappy. I can do what I want, when I want, and the original fear that the independence was too much for me is now a distant and laughable memory. I rarely miss home, I only wish my friends were here to join me in feeling this amazing, blissful state of contentment.
Oh, yes, according to all my previous rules something huge and karmic will come slamming down and disrupt my happiness - failing my exams would be an example - but I can't imagine that happening.
It's so strange to be content. It's blissful. Nirvana. I can't imagine going back and staying in my parent's house now. (But I will be, in December!)
I'll update next week. I'm planning on doing some major Diwali-based cooking (mutton! sambar! stir-fried beans!), some specific shopping, and maybe pop down to Essex to visit my family friends and their new baby and be generally disgusted by yellow puke and green poop. And then the week after everyone else has reading week (i.e. a week off school to "read") (mine is supposed to be next week; I only have my one exam on Tuesday the whole week), and I'll be all alone in my house and going to school 9 - 5 and looking desperately for pathetically-paying jobs again. And you know what? I'll be happy.
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