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Fear
Who'da thunk?
Who would have thought that trust was such a big deal? Who would have thought that trusting God with something so miniscule would be so scary? Who would have thought it would actually be HARD? Well, certainly not me. But it is. Allow me to elaborate.
This Sunday, our Bible study was about trusting God. Liz brought up how I always freak out about falling when the sidewalk has ice on it. Well everyone is a little wary aren't they? Then she tells me that I should just trust God because He won't let me fall. Sounds easy enough right? So then Liz's challenge for the week is to overcome something and trust God with it. Today could have not been a better day to accept Liz's challenge. I hadn't really thought about what fear I was going to get over. I head out to class this morning and the ground is snow covered. And slush covered. And ice covered. And of course I freak out. I didn't wear my good shoes. I just knew I was gonna wipe out. The ground was pretty slippery. I just kept saying to myself, "All right God, I know You're not gonna let me fall so help me walk without fear." It's a lot easier said than done. So I stopped looking at the sidewalk. It was hard considering that by looking down, I was also keeping snow from whipping my face. Ok, so basically I royally screwed up on the way to class. I let Satan get to me. But on the way back, I was determined. The snow had calmed down. I walked with confidence that I was not going to fall. I walked normally...I didn't walk with little baby steps like I do when I'm on ice. I didn't look at the ground so I didn't even really know if I was actually on ice. And of course I slid around in some places, but I didn't fall. I didn't even come close.
The weird part was that I was more freaked out today than I usually am. I guess it was because I didn't want God to get pissed at me for not trusting Him. It's not like I thought He was gonna smote me right then and there or anything. But hey, I'm not gonna tempt Him. It was just a weird feeling I guess. It's hard to explain. So anyways, I don't know if I'm completely over my weird ice fear. But I am definitely on my way.
Peace out and God bless!
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