|Current mood:|| chipper|
|Current music:||"Ants Marching" Dave Matthews Band|
Stop and smell the...roses?
For the record: I hate Blurty because it keeps timing out and deleting what I have just written. So far it has done this three times over the past few weeks and I'm just too lazy to rewrite everything.
I'm really looking forward to this summer. If nothing else, I at least won't have to sit through pointless classes that have nothing to do with what I want to do with the rest of my life. On that note; what am I going to do for the rest of my life? I've wanted to be a photojournalist for about three years now, but things can change like the wind. I'm worried. What if I can't get a good job and I'm always stuck in the crappy job where you do all the stuff that no one else wants to do? What if I have to work all the time and then something I have always loved to do will become boring or dreaded? I was talking to a friend who has the same major and he was saying that already his hobby was becoming ruined by classes and teachers words. What if I'm not good at what I do? Most people can learn any trade but art is somewhat different. If you suck at art...you suck at art. It's much harder to acquire an eye for art than it is to memorize math formulas, or learn how to teach a kindergarten class. If you don't have it, you're screwed. If I can get through school and somehow manage to prove myself, I'll be set; doing what I love and living off it for the rest of my life.
I asked my dad the other day if he liked his job. He kind of paused for a moment and then said sure. He said that that's why people switch jobs so often, is because after they do something for so long they get tired of it. He's had his job for probably 25 years...wouldn't he get tired of it? I've always said that if you don't like your job, find another because there are plenty of jobs out there so you might as well try to find one you like. I suppose there are exceptions, such as sucky jobs you have to have when you're poor and need to pay for college or if you had children and had to support them, but these aren't long term positions so you know there are always prospects and moving on or moving up. But if you've had a job for 25 years it would be so hard to up and leave no matter how unhappy you are. Think of how controlling money can be. Strains on marriages, break-ups of friendships, and even a life of unhappiness just because you have to pay for things and can't survive without your crappy job. Mmmm...depressing. But if I ever get locked in a behind-the-desk, suit-wearing job please shoot me and remind me what it is I really love.
I think I'm going to go make myself look pretty...