|Current mood:|| thankful|
i've been thinking...
this past week i've been thinking about everything.
everything good and everything bad.
i've thought about the friends i have and the 'friends' i have.
in the past four days, i've cried more then i have in the past year, sad but true.
i'm not a very emotional person, i may be over dramatic at times, but i'm not one to show my feelings through tears. so it was weird to sit on the floor of my room, on top of all the pillows from my bed, and just burst into tears for nearly ten minutes.
i know that there is nothing wrong with crying but its just not ME...i don't cry. i cry more while watching disney movies then cry about things that are personally going wrong in my life. hm.
this past week, i've been thinking A LOT about the CLOSE friends i have. and i have to say that i value the friendships i have with them. sometimes there are times when we're just completely sick of eachother and want to get away; just cut all ties and stop talking, stop calling, stop hanging out. but once you've realized that there are those moments, when you actually need your friends there...its those times when you value them the most. the time when you feel lonely and at your worst. the friends i care about most (particurally two), need to know that...even tho i may be a bitch, even tho i may get on your nerves, and you may get on mine...that i'll always cherish the times we share. i hope you both know that.
this week i've barely gone out (maybe a couple of hours). i'm trying to be a responsible and sympathetic daughter by staying home and helping out my mom, b/c she needs it. i'm sorry that i havent been THAT social but eventually my mom will get better and i will be able to venture out more often. and i hope that i get to see some people that i haven't seen in a long time.
that's really all i have to say.