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Hummm
AUG 22nd. On this day a year ago, Johnny died in a drunk driving accident. He had a thing in the newspaper about him. SO sad. What a good kid he was. Damn. Drunk driving kills, yet we all do it. I really dont know why i was so fuckin irresponsible and immature bout that. I have a whole new view on it now. Poor Johnny, he would still be here today for sure. Here is a picture of him. Seriously, what a good kid. Such a shame. I hope he knows how many people cared about him. I mean, I pretty much lived with him and forever will remember how nice he was to me even when his friends were against me. Such as when I didnt want to be at Robs cuz they were all high and being losers...so he told them he had homework to do so I had to drive him home...of course he didnt have homework...he was just being nice. :(...First song I heard in the car today was that "where oh where can my baby be"...damn, that could be any of us getting killed in a car crash. Im surprised none of us have...
On a lighter note, I went shopping in P-Land today with mom. She bought me a new comforter and a backpack, and some jeans, oh and sheets. I got a pair of jeans and a club shirt from express. There was so much I wanted but stuff was sooo exp. like 70 for jeans that i realllllly liked. oh well.
I babysat for isabella last night. I love her! she had gotten shots, her ears pierced, and was teething so she was crying, but i held her and she fell asleep. what a nice feeling.
I talked to Ryan, i think ill go down maybe tues/wed. and stay for a night. then go move into the new place.
well the guy said by fri he would tell me bout the maxima and he hasnt..i have some other prospects but they are fuckin ugly, and i really dont want any ugly car...i guess its better than nothin though....
i feel kinda sad right now, mostly cuz of Johnny but it makes me sad and miss people I have lost in the past too...not as in dying, but just lost you know? It makes me think..like anyone could just die and seems like a lot of people ive lost touch with is cuz it ended bad or just being lazy, and that really is dumb. If I were to die today, some of the people who have meant the most throughout my life arent even in it now.
Say my dad died, i would feel so so so bad about things i have said to him-even if he has done some horrbble things in the past. Id feel like he left me thinking i hated him.
I want to be nice this yr and not lose anyone important to me anymore.
well i really dont need to talk about this anymore...but it just had me thinking.
GOOD, by next wkend i wont be home on a fuckin FRI night! well i certainly hope so anyway!
-Em
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