elyse (shearpop) wrote, @ 2005-11-05 23:31:00

so much silence has elapsed--
i breathe
and with that breathe everything rushes
quickly to my brain.
so many thoughts and fears and dreams and . . .
next to you i see me so differently than ever before.
everyone no longer sees individuals but 'us' and
you know how that scares me.
a stupid comment made to spark a stupid conversation
ends in tears and fears.
suddenly we both sit back in shock at my ...
what is it? what is this unbelievable inability to accept women versus men?
*i am so scared of losing me*
and it shows how little i trust both of us.
how easily i am riled
how easily i become defensive when they're only trying to help..
what am i running from and where is the end of this race?
why do i expect you to have expectations you do not?
why am i so afraid?

. . .

there are too many whys...

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