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You take 10 people and write something about/to them without saying who they are. i dblocked this from kristin who dblocked it from cait who dblocked it from someone else. 1. My sister. Even though your not blood and even though your not in the same state i have known you my whole life. since we were in diapers we have shared everything. i know we are distant as ever now and we really dont even talk, we dont visit on holidays anymore and i know our lifestyles are completly differnt but that doesn't change our past, the interests we share and all the memories we've had. your like my other half and i know your busy with sports and shit. i haven't even been to your new house. i hope to see you soon because you are a genuine girl and you have a lot of great aspects you are one of the few people i know that is going to actually go somewhere and become something when they grow up. your going to get a scholarship for sports and be in nba or some crazy shit like that. Become a multi millionare and do me one favor don't follow me footsteps in the world of drugs. you took your first hit with me and that was the worst thing i could have ever done looking back on it now. 2. The love of my life. The reason i wake up every morning.. or atleast motiavates me to move should i say. For the last 3 1/2 years we have been through hell and back and over again .. and again .. and again. I love you with every once of me and I know we put eachother through hell and fuck eachother over and lie but i know it's only not to hurt eachother even though in the end we get hurt. When im sad your sad your like my siamese twin your my other half. My soulmate and even if were too young i believe in 10 more years i'll be saying the same but i don't think i'll be writting my feelings in a corny ass journal. I love looking at you and being held by you i love laying on your chest and falling asleep in your arms i love loving you i love being loved by you i love how devious you are i even love how bipolar you are i love your short temper i love your baldness i love your stomach i love your back cracking i love when you rub cream on me i love when i scratch the shit out your back i love salading with you i love when you wig out on me because i fucked up and i love how you listen i love you your mind works i love how your more intelligant than i am i love learning from you i love how you are so thruthful but at the same time your not i love your cute voice when you call me baby and i just love you, i hope to spend as many years i can with you because i know their won't be much to spare.. and in your case i hope i can do everything in my power to make your last years the best. i love you baby and thanks for molding me as me. 3. My Nigga. Where would i be without you? you've helped me and i've helped you through some shit. I don't think their will be an end to our friendship because i know without you i would feel like their is no reason to stay sober. Your an inspiration and you've taught me that drugs are something that we don't need. Better yet you've made it sink in my head that we don't need drugs to have fun. I've always known that i just never actually took the advice and actually used it. I've lectured and lectured and said i will stop but until my nigga got busted and got put in rehab i've realized if you can stop im stopping with you bro.I'll never forget those times we had when we were on the drugs though you know that shit is crazy those times are unforgetable we can reminisce as a pastime to get sober. i love you and you know you'll always be my nigga. 4. You used to be my best friend, you used to practically live with me. My mom was your mom and your mom was my mom. We had similar lives and childhoods and were both rejected from our fathers. We were/are both fucking weird and silly and we can just laugh and talk and trust eachother well i know thats how it used to be. I know if i never became what i was with drugs i wouldn't have to write all these nice things about you in past tense. I miss waking up in the morning and seeing you sleeping i miss getting sick all the time because your immune system sucks i miss bitching and moaning at you for having your cloths and all your shit scattered all around my room i miss kicking you out of my bed at night i miss those new years eve moment i miss laughing with you crying with you i miss times we had with that slut it was like we were the 3 musketeers and nothing could seperate us..atleast thats what we thought but we were wrong. Now ones in impatient ones trying to get sober and the other * you * has moved on and doesn't feel like waiting for me to get me life together. i don't blame you i really don't if i were you i wouldn't put up with my shit either. I just want to thank you for the past we've had the past what 9 10 years of our lives we've spent together. i thank your for everything and im sorry things had to turn out this way, i love you. 5. I know you can't read this. I know your somewhere where you belong where i most likly belong well not at this point but i want to take the time out to sit here and right this because i am so thankful for knowing you and even in the end you fucked me over i know what alcohol does and i know what a controlling person he was and im sure if he wanted if he was getting it and i know you when you drink.. when you used to drink i mean you got sloppy and blacked out. I know what happened you didn't mean. I know you would have done anything for me and you did when we had our time together. I know when ever i needed you, you would run over to me house i know when i thought someone was breaking into my condo you ran over with your brother with a knife ready to fuck someone up. I know you were true and you were real with your shit just like me. Whenever i had no food in my house you were there in 3 minutes ringing at my doorbell with a can of soup in your hand shivering with wet pants up to your knees from the snow shivering with a smile on your face. well i wanted to let you know i think about you everyday and i think about me and you and kristina we were the 3 musketeers and im glad your gettin the help you need and as much as i no you'll never read this and i know that you will never be allowed to look at me most likly when you get out i will always wish i could be able to give you a second chance and i will always love you. 6. The fuckup. You are the reason for everything that has gone bad in my life but for some reason i will always think of you in a positive way. Your the reason for me getting arrested. You are the reason my ex best friend is impatient in rehab right now. You are the reason shes my ex best friend. I know you had problems with drugs/alcohol i can relate but just because you were fucking up your life doesn't mean you had to fuck up mine. I know this is a place where i'm supposed to be thankful and tell all the reasons why i love you but i don't love you. I never did love you. I thought i loved you but it was infatuation. Those lips, those eyes, those hands. I loved everything about you but YOU. You for who you were was the ugliest thing about you. Your dimples, that smile i loved the whole package. I'm sure i could have spent the rest of my life looking at you because everytime you walked in the room it was like a gust of wind had blown me away and all of a sudden i did like 63 lines of coke or something..and i had the worst pit in my stomach. Then once i really found out who you truly were you made me sick to my stomach. Other than that you changed a lot in my life and most of it was all downhill but i did learn a lot from you and i will never forget the times we had. Making babies for what 9 hours at a time haha.. I'll never forget the party we were at and we were trashed and i was sitting on your lap and we were all kissing and being sloppy and you looked at me with those fucking eyes and asked me to be your girlfriend i thought i was the most fortunate girl ever. A year spent being with you and then being broken up and i don't even know why. I will always remember the blackberry brandy the jack daniels the re all the things i thought were good that i know now were only bad. I want to thank you for letting me share those times with you. I want to thank you also because if you never stuck it to kay...i wouldn't have took IT your brother Oh snap...thank you for that one. Bet you didn't know that. I cared so much about you and my heart was yours atleast i thought it was until you took it and through it back in my face. 7. My childhood. To the girl next door, i really don't know how to explain you. You were my protegee back in the day. I remember the skin off my knees and the look on your face when i fell on the blacktop and you were petrified from the sight of blood..what did you do you took my hand helped me up and brought me to see the nurse. I miss you more than words could explain. You and your family were everything to me. Your big sister was like my big sister. I shared everything with you i spent everything important with you in my childhood. Everyday after i moved i told my mom i hated her for taking me away from you. Im sure if i stayed in Jefferson i'd most likly be worst of then i am now though. I wish we would have kept in touch because you were really something special to me and i would love to see how you've turned out now. I know how you look you haven't changed a bit but i wonder how our friendship would have turned out if we grew up more. I know it would have been good because i could see you were going to grow up to be honest and sucessful. I miss you so much and i wish one day we could meet up again and we'd go on a treasure hunt and then get so tired and come home and stand on my couch and perform our music or get the karaoke machine and your whole family upstairs which was alot and put on a show for them. We were amazing we really were, god im all choked up i can't do this i love you and miss you so much. 8. My home girl. There for my since the 4th grade. I really don't even know what to write about you. You are one of the strongest people i know. I remeber you used to never even cry. The worst could happen to you and you would stand up straight stick out your chest and flaunt it like nothing was the matter. I love that about you. I miss or fun times like shannahnahaha free willy MY BAD oh shit grl mr fergusons class that fucking tape woah we've had alot of good times together. We've definitly grown apart over the years and it's funny today that you asked if wanted to chill this weekend for some reason i know it's not going to happen like that but im okay with that. Ive learned that everyone grows apart theres nothing you can really do i mean you can relive the past i just wish sometimes we could. I look up to alot because of all the shit you deal with your never quite dealt the right hand. What is to even say what the right hand is? And how determines it? Who defines it? I dont know man i wish we could go back to smokeypot or go skinnny dipping in the reservoir or how abouts that talp video oh man i miss you girl sorry we've changed thanks for being you. Never forget MY BAD. I miss you and love you alot. 9. My blood. My hero. My inspiration. Did i mention my hero? No matter how many times you haven fucked up no matter how many years you will sit in prison i think about you every waking momment. Your the real reason of loving your family. Your the perfect, the only example. You have taught me so much you have told me over and over again Shannon don't turn out like me dont please dont and i always said i wouldn't but in the back of my mind i always knew it would. I knew all along. Maybe it was my destiny. We are so alike the differnece is i won't end up with a life of jail sentencing. Hey your getting out soon, does it really make a differnce? Will i ever see you.. i highly doubt that. You have to get the fuck out of that town, this state fuck it swim to deserted island and the FBI will be flying over you trying to aim for you in the water. You are the most destuctive person i know. I think if you ever had a chance to be with a girl and love her and marry her and spend a few years with her she would be the luckiest person ever to live. You and Shawn are so much alike i think thats why i love him so much. No matter how bad you have fucked up and have let down our family i will be the only one that see's eye to eye with you and i dont mind keeping it that way. I don't think i could ever love anybody like i love you. Your the legs to my table. I can't wait to see you. I love you 10. Okay originally this was a spot for everyone in general but i came to the realization that i forgot a very special person. This goes out to the one and only evil eyes: The first day i met you the only reason why you approached me was because i was making out with another girl. Even if it was a mistake to get my number instead of hers i thank you for making that mistake. Sadly enough i still have that paper with your the digits. When we ran into rockandbowl so you can give me your number i was so nervous because i thought you were the most amazingest person i had came across and a very long time. I was right. After that night you were the only think i thought about. The only thing i talked about. Once we started hanging out i was really into head over heals in lust with you. I thought i loved you i really did but my drunken actions didn't prove that to you. I do love you but not that way i thought i did. When i made that mistake that night and you and Scott walked from Franklin to Hamburg i knew then i really fucked up. That night when we went back to Scott's that is when i started to sober up i layed there and watched you sleep, i cried untill i cried so much i couldn't cry anymore untill i finally passed out. I can't even count the * i'm sorry's * and i don't think i have given you enough. That was never intentional and i didn't want things to end us that way. But sure enough realtionship-wise it did. When you came 2 jess's to talk all i did was cry and cry on the swings and on the dock all day everytime i looked at you i felt like i was - - big and to this day i am so sorry. I wanted to be that girl that you would stay faithfull to. We've had alot of good times and hard times since then. When your dad died i think that was the hardest thing everyone had to cope with. At that point i thought things were never going to be the same because you most likly wouldn't be around. Sure enough you moved to the condoes. And you knew you could always tell me everything and i would never break another promise to you because of how badly i felt after the one with barrett..since then the only one was out of the kindess of my heart with the night of the haunted hay ride which i won't mention. Evil Eyes, i don't know thankful i am to have you as a friend and you know whenever you need someone to talk to you got two ears in a snap of your finger. I'll always love you and i hope everything works out in your little situatoin. I'm really happy for you and i know one of these days your going to find that girl that will make you so incredibly happy and i hope im there to share that happiness with you. I love you. 11. I don't know how i seemed to forget you. I actually i know how. Im gonna break it down to you how i feel as of right now. I miss you alot. I miss everyday i had with you. I miss the laughs the cries the holidays the everythings and anythings we had together. I miss your intelligence and i miss learning from you. Because with you being around i always knew i could have a clean head on my shoulder filled with shit that actually mattered in my life shit that made sense for once. And do you know what happened to all of that? Cause i really don't. The fact of your sisters decisions and the end result at the carnival probaly the last time we acutally were hanging out. Or the fact of that being the last straw for you. The end of realizing hey im better than all these scumbags and i dont need them in my life. I don't need to surround myself by them all their doing is bringing you down in the long run. All that good stuff yeah well if thats it or the other reason with your sister or just because you felt you needed to completly change your life for the better and the only way you could do that was cease our friendship for good. Then okay. I'm glad you did it then because if you sticked around for another 5 months or so after we stopped talking we probaly would have had a much harder ending. Much harder. The stupid decision making and shit the people i started associating with. The damage and pain i inflicted on myself and others the people that loved me i totally brushed them off my shoulder like they were nothing. When really they were the only constant in my life. You ask do i have them now really i only have one of them left. Shawn. That's it, The one person everyone said wasnt right for me. They were all wrong. Hes the only thing that kept me smiling and strong through everything when everyone gave up on me. I wonder what would have happened to us if we continued to be friends. But even when we stopped talking we werent as close as we really used to be. You and your family was like family to me. But i know if we got better and closer there would be no way around being at your house with your sister and et cetera. I mean beef between me and her is mainly squashed now but it hurts just looking at her in school being around her sleeping in the same house as her would kill me. So maybe its best were not friends. I know that your making out fine without me. Im not sure how i am without you. I honestly think i would have never did half the fucked up shit i did in the last few months because i know you were that one person i needed when i thought of doing those things to look at me and be like "shannon are you dumb" and i just really would have looked around and said yes. i no that i would have never gotten so desperate and so weak i know i would have been more smarter because i would have had you there enlightening me with all that smart shit you always you used to tell me. Like the black light that day in your room. I have never heard someone in almost 17 years now ramble on about a black light and all the intelligent shit you said about it. I dont think ive ever heard a teacher or anyone with like a teaching degree say something that made so much sense but really didnt like to me. your an amazing person truly you are and an inspiration such a bright girl your gonna fucking make it some day big dude big and your gonna have a great life and im so proud of the person you are today. not that i no much about it but i know its good. i love you and there isnt a day i dont think about you to be honest. i still love you for the person you are and i miss you alot but everything happens for a reason stay clean kids its fucking worth it im out to try to go to a fuckin meeting Post a comment in response: |
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