| Current mood: | overwhelmed |
| Current music: | Strawberry Gashes --- Jack Off Jill |
pale skin, dark visage
lots has happened since i last updated. i have come...out to the whole school now. let's hope it doesn't reach father. he could already know, but is choosing to keep silent about it until summer. that will be hell. anyways, i have grown fond of my boy, Soren. he has opened a whole new world for me, but he holds so many secrets. i can't even be sure he has told me everything. his cat, Dante, seems to know more about Soren than Soren does. that's ok I guess. we all have our "little" secrets, don't we? parth sure does. come to find out, after soren and i had been together, parth was pissed off at us because he was in love with soren also. this is much to convenient for him, if you ask me. things were just going to good for me. anyways, soren went away for awhile. too long. but he came back to me, and im afraid he might have to leave me for a short time again. i dont know if my fragile heart can bare this any longer. he tells me it'll be ok, but he has so much going on. he has this whole big destiny savior prophecy that i am not a part of. literally. i am not supposed to be a part of his destiny. is this whole thing just a loss cause? damn. i vowed when i first met him that my wrists would never feel the cold isolation of the blade, but did i make that compromise in vain? goddess damn it.
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