i'm so confused. so stessed. so.. guilty.
mostly i feel bad about lee. i mean.. i know there is nothing i can do to keep him here.. but i feel bad that i don't try. the whole day i avoided him, he avoided me.
but math was a different story. our desks are diagonal, facing each other, a row apart.. so if he was to be looking my direction, it would have to be intentional. none of that "starring off into space" crap. he was watching me most of the period. if i looked up, he looked down.
then just a few minutes ago i woke up from the weirdest dream involving him.. its all so fucking confusing.