I just want to curl up somewhere... I'm pushing everyone away in RL. I just can't stand the looks my friends are giving me... and all because of Tobias. Because he thinks he's better than me. I... I just don't understand what I've done to him. And right now, right now I just want to reach for my cutter and create a few more scars. A few more scars to remind my of my own stupidity. How could I believe that he'd want me? Which man would want someone like me? I'm just nothing more than dirt. I wished I could just say "Fuck it" like I usually do but I'm not strong enough anymore. Fuck this damn world...