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This post is simply moving the questions I’ve gotten on my previous posts to the front page for easy access, and will be one of several Q&A pages to make this easier on everyone. As such, this post is simply a matter of convenience and more information will be coming up soon Sergeant Tinkles: Since you are a fan of Sephiroth from the game, maybe he seemed to come into existence in the astral realm because you imagined him with his characteristics and others you made your own? I have a lot of theories on why this has happened to me, and I've narrowed it down to one after a couple years of effort, but it's still possible that the being I associate with that name and image may be someone entirely different who assumed that form because that's what I needed at the time. I've kinda-sorta ruled that out, but the theory is still there. I get what you're saying though, and you can probably see why it's so damned hard to explain what I have to say when there are times I can't even get it into the proper words. In any case, it's still a journey of discovery for me, and I know I'm far away from actually 'knowing' completely what has happened to me...and I imagine I never will know the full story - at least not while I'm living my life on earth. Anonymous: This is indeed very interesting, Julia. I never heard of anything like this... but there is one thing that I cannot understand, no matter how I try. It's about your archangel. You said he's not the same as the game character. But then why did you said in the former blurty that Sephiroth told you about his family? Like how Hojo didn't allow him to have any relationships when he was alive? If he just has the game character's looks, then why did you say he was killed by Cloud? I would be most grateful if you cleared that up. Yeah...I was reading back through my old posts recently, and I noticed a few of those incidents. And honestly, I'm still trying to figure out what was going on when I wrote those. I'm trying to remember the specific conversation that prompted me to write it, and you know what? I can't remember it. Now, that was a couple years ago, and I could easily attribute it to my typically bad memory or option two is that it was a dream. I have had dreams about Sephiroth-the-character in the past, and obviously I can now distinguish between what was a dream and what was a true out of body experience. Perhaps my younger self confused the two - given how complex the topic of astral projection is, I'd say it's fairly likely that a young girl could have become confused at the difference...since I was only beginning to read on the topic and only had a very, very limited knowledge of astral projection and the astral realm. But it's certainly a matter to look into and reflect on. If I can turn up a more definitive answer, I'll be sure to address it. However, for the time being I'm going to say I wrote that confusing a dream with true projection. At the time I didn't have much control over when I projected, so the chance to mistake the two would be high. Ladybow: So you admit now that "Sephiroth", the man you meet, is not Sephiroth the game character. But the game character was the one you loved, and technically you don't even know the one that you're meeting, if he's really "an angel in disguise" or the like. I was thinking....wouldn't that mean that you kind of...gave up your love for Sephiroth the game character? Or like it's some kind of two-timing? Because you say they're two different people, but you've claimed to love both. But if you only love your Sephiroth because he looks like the game Sephiroth that you used to love...that doesn't seem fair. I don't know. I guess I just want to know how that works. Ah, the complex questions. This is actually a matter I've given thought to, because of the seeming way I'm contradicting myself. It's true that I fell in love with the videogame character. When I first began spontaneously projecting, I thought I was meeting the game character. As I learned more about my gift and learned more about the angel I had met, it came to my attention that he wasn't, in fact, the game character. This realization didn't happen for a while, though. So in a way, (and this hurts my head trying to understand/explain) I fell in love with the archangel when I still believed him one in the same with the game character. But when I found out he wasn't, that didn't change the fact that I was very much in love with him...and in that regard was freed from my childish obsession with the game character - a process I'm sure would have happened naturally even if I hadn't begun projecting. Since several years have passed since this began, it's given me quite a lot of time to ponder why I have this ability, and what, exactly, it means. The issue you addressed is just one of many things I've had to think about in the last year or so...as I began to truly understand the life I'm leading. But as I said, your question was complex, because of the different factors involved in what was occuring at the time I began projecting. I came from a Catholic family, had never heard the words 'astral projection' before my psychiatrist mentioned them, was only beginning my research, I was young and naive, and the list goes on. I guess the easiest way to sum up would be that the archangel helped me get past the videogame character. The bottom line is that now, November 2nd, 2007, I can say I am NOT in love with the videogame character...and thus leave the squabbling over that character to the psychotic fangirls. With my years of research and practical exploration I've learned that the being I am in love with isn't that character, and by the time I realized that I had no problem accepting it. Being more mature than my younger self, what it means to truly be in love with the archangel who returns my love is infinitely superior to the infatuation my younger self had for a fictional character. Maybe it's not fair to the character, I wouldn't know. But I know that having the opportunity to be loved in return makes the weirdness that is my life seem worth it. Anonymous: Huh... Archangel or not (I personally don't believe angels in the biblical sense exist) he probably took the form of Sephiroth from FFVII for your sake. I don't know about his name. I've heard of such things happening before with guardian spirits (as well as malicious entities). Maybe you should ask him if he has a true form to show you? Especially since you're over Sephiroth now. I know there is a lot that could be actually happening with this, and as I've said in the past - I've considered that it could be the being I know as Sephiroth may be someone entirely different. I'll discuss this in depth in a coming post, but for a summary suffice to say that for the time being I've ruled it out. My reasonings behind this are numerous, but my best is this: in my studies of evocation I've read that the best way to check the identity of a spirit is to ask he/she to sign their name. For reasons unclear to me (mostly because I've lost the book and forgot - need to replace that) an entity cannot sign any name other than their own true name. For fun I asked Sephiroth to do just that, and he did sign Sephiroth. So...its just a matter of what new information I turn up. It wouldn't be unreasonable to say I could easily be learning for the rest of my mortal life, but for now, I have to say that I strongly doubt he has a 'true form' to show me. Especially because he knows me very well, and if he did, in fact, have an alternate identity...he would know that I've been ready for that for a long time. M-chan: So he looks just like the Sephiroth character? Or, as you said, the character looks like him? Do you have any idea why? Yes. As for why...you know, I'm still in the process of explaining that to myself. It seems a huge cosmic coincidence to write it off as luck, you know? I mean, what would the odds be of a young girl falling in love with a videogame character who was based off of an angel? So the truthful answer is I don't know why...I never really questioned it because I've never had a need to do so. At the time he came to me, I was in serious danger, and he saved my life - why would I question his appearance years later? But now that you've asked the question I've given it some thought, and I guess for now my only explanation is this: I believe in the concept of soul mates. In the recent past I've conversed privately with other projectors, and found my case (of having a soul mate not of this world) is actually not that unusual. I believe that soul mates are naturally drawn to each other through the grace of whatever deity one worships, and that even though few find each other, they still are searching, deep in their subconscious mind (the reason for the american divorce rate?) It seems that every now and then, a human is born without the other half of their soul - the being bearing the aforementioned other half is born in an entirely separate realm...in my case, some form of heaven. Even though the circumstances are a little strange, I theorize that my connection to the videogame character was meant to lead me to the archangel. Or at least for now, that's the best I've got. M-chan: So the archangel found a way to you by, let's say, inspiring someone to make a character that looks exactly like him? I don't really have an opinion one way or the other over whether the angel inspired the character or whether he's taken on the form I'm comfortable with - except that as I said before, I have to doubt he has an alternate appearance, because I've been ready to accept that for a while and have never had any sign that may be the case. M-chan: Out of curiosity, have you tried asking him [these questions]? Yes, in fact. I had to ask such questions at one point, when I was really trying to get to the bottom of what was happening. Seph had satisfactory answers for all my questions, and for that reason among others I have difficulty believing he could have an alternate identity/appearance/etc. M-chan: Do you know what kind of archangel is he? Superior beings don't need a human form, right? And if he has no other appearance, then... for me it sounds strange that an archangel has only one form/appearance, and that is of a human. There's a theory that the concept of shapeshifting originated from the astral realm. The level of control any being on the astral plane has is so great that he/she/it can change their appearance at will, and by doing so best adapt to what they perceive themselves to be...for example, Robert Bruce cites that most projectors over the age of about forty-five or fifty project themselves to the astral plane no older than thirty or so - the prime of their lifetimes. As for how that pertains to Sephiroth, I imagine if the need arose he could very well change his appearance...because if I wanted to, I could change mine quite easily, making it no problem for a spiritually advanced being. I do, however, believe that any being has a 'true form' so to speak (i.e. the fifty-year-old projector may look thirty while on the astral plane, but in reality is still fifty). And from what I can gather, the appearance I am accustomed to seeing is his true form. I could be wrong, but since this first started I have made a point to attempt to view this as objectively as possible to evaluate what's going on. (At first, I was quite worried I was insane/schizophrenic!) That concludes the first Q&A session...and I hope it's been informative. So with that I bid you all well until next time. Post a comment in response: |
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