|Current music:||mando diao: 'God Knows'|
depressed...let the record show a hearty four rejections three acceptances and one waitlisted. i cant even remember how many more schools i havnt heard from. i fucking miss wen i could just drink it away and just get blasted or do lines until i couldnt see and my face was numb. w/e parents not really helping. why cant dad function in a family? wat the fuck is so hard about being honest and taking care of the family. maybe mom should just leave this time for good. and back to school on monday. woot. im so lost right now. i hope u dont read this. this is cathartic in a way though. i ate an entire pint of coffee ice cream the other night. now thats a "u kno ur fat when.." moment if i ever saw one. theres a chance i might not go to college at all let alone my top choice (at least i got in there). maybe God didnt want me to be able to make a choice b/c He knew i would make the wrong one. this is worthless. besides u have more stuff to deal with than this, im sorry im so petty and emo right now.