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the things I talk about...
Tue, Feb. 17th, 2004, 08:54 pm
I never talk about regular high school girl things...Never about how I should do my hair, the same old ponytail has always worked for me, if I feel random I'll create a hairstyle on the spot. Never about clothes, I wear what is comfortable and what fits....and what will last through the crazy things I do in a day. I don't really talk about boys so much either, because when i was younger I wanted just to be accepted by them so I could get away from the nasty girls in my grade. My friend Bets and I find the most outrageous things to talk about. During homeroom and on our way out of english mostly, but you wouldn't believe the topis of discussion. I swear, if this school had a debate team we'd captain it. We get into heated debates as to whether there is a life after death, are there aliens out there, how far does the universe really go, things about the ridiculous happenings in the government, I always bring up my views on the bogosity of religion, what we'd be doing if school wasn't required, what planet we think we were transferred from...
And I come here now to voice an opinion on another one of these bizarrely advanced topics for one my age: The gay marriage issue. I watched a news report just today and I witnessed a man say that gay and lesbian couples should not have exual rights as those heterosexual couples. Why? I've heard such exuses as 'it's not normal', and 'why would they want to get married?' but by far the most apalling reason I recieved from the president was something concerning what it says in the bible. It was a few weeks ago when I heard this, and my jaw dropped! I couldn't believe my ears: the president was discriminating against his supporters because of gender, on account of his religion. I am a HUGE fan of the whole 'separation of church and state' thing. I'm going to fight the schools for having the word god in the pledge of allegiance, because I don't think it's fair. Guess what? I'm a christian. I've never cracked open the bible before. As quoted from BRUCE ALMIGHTY, 'Smite me, oh mighty Smiter!!!' if I am being stupid about this, but I am not about to live in a world created and seen over by someone who discriminates upon gender. I thought all were equal in god's eyes? I suppose you have to have the right 'equipment' to be equal. (<,< yeah, that's how I'll phrase it, the heck if you don't understand) Marriage is about love, and love is about caring deeply for someone. Love surpasses all boundaries, and it could leap the bounds between worlds. It leaps boundaries between species, I love my cat; not so much that I would marry it, but I love her. Love is not based on appearance, so why should it be based on sex? Love is based on one's thoughts, their inner self, and if you take that spirit (I call it spirit, maybe you call it soul?) Well if you take that spirit and put it in any other body, It's still the same essence, it's still the same person, and it still matches up with the corresponding spirit (soulmate I suppose is your term for it). Regardless of whose body it's in, what color, race, gender, anything else, that belongs to the body, is irrelevant. I am straight (could ya believe it after reading some of that?) yeah, I'm straight, but some of the nicest people I know are homosexual. My librarian, my tech teacher, my old karate teacher, they all have a lesbian match. I'm not a fan of the news, so I don't know if same sex marriages are allowed here or not, but I suspect not, though I can't understand why. Maybe it's because the only person to sincerely ask me out to a school dance was bisexual, maybe it's all this yaoi that my friend has taken an interest to, maybe it's because the homosexual subject seems to come up in anime so much more than american TV, but I don't now if I would have made the same decision years and years earlier......yu know what? I probably would have. I've never paid any attention to people's appearance (except on the subject of guys I like, but all the cute ones hate me anyway), but if I was asked to tell someone what my best friend looks like, I probably wouldn't be able to. I know her hair color...and her favorite food, and stuff like that, physical description? she's taller than me. that's as far as I get, I don't see the exterior, I'm looking right at their soul. If you gave me a picture of a person I could tell you exactly how the person felt when they had the picture taken, but come back a day later and ask what the person looked like and I won't remember. I'm trying to find a soulmate, and so far it hasn't worked, and I've found nothing even close. Actually, going back to the subject of me being straight, at one point I doubted that. I kind of liked someone I met online at a drawing website, but I could never figure out if they were a girl or a boy. I've seen them on another drawing site and determined that they are a girl, but I remember admiring them, and being so curious. Now that I know, I just want to be her friend, which seems like is gonna work...I just don't swing that way...
but what if I did? would you view me any differently than you do now? Would dating a girl really surpass some of the other nutty things I've done? VB, I'm lookin for an answer on that one...
I asked my dad earlier about his standings on this matter, and he made a weird face.
I asked my mom when the subject came into my perspective a few weeks ago, and I got a similar response from her as I got from my dad.
Two of my friends from that drawing site that closed down were girlfriend and girlfriend, and you never would have known it if they hadn't said it. A kid I liked 4 years ago turned out to be gay, and it doesn't surprise me, though I sometimes feel like it's my fault for probably creeping him out giving him little 'I ♥ U' notes.....but I really can't blame him. The girls in his grade are nasty as heck also, me and y buddy Kristen have decided to wage war against half of my gym class, which I've noted is comprised of mostly those girls I previously noted that kid I liked 4 years ago kept hanging around and repeatedly asking out...
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