| Current mood: |  blah |
| Current music: | "Army Of Me" by: bjork |
well today is boring as usual i think i am going to give up on being secret on who i am i mean fuck that people will just have to accept me the way i am right. Well to start out my name is obed and well you probably have already guessed due to the fact that i am gay and well i live in cleveland and there is no other "open" gay person here in cleveland well not anymore at least. i am kinda bored right now i just got back from school and well i still don't have a boyfriend but i didn't get an im from my former boyfriend who now resides in detroit but i have gotten over him and i am glad, but deep down i still know i have feelings for him. man this journal must not make any sense i am just rambling onf about random stuff. my best friend kristy wasn't at school today which made me sad due to the fact that i had to sit in chemistry and now one to talk to due to the fact that i am gay and everyone tends to hate me or make fun of me or ask me personal questions that i am confortable with answering but they aren't confortable listening to the answer thought they asked the question i hope i am not confusing you. but i guess right now i am just "BLAH" empty I need the affection of a man and i need it fast i just want to be held ladies you know what i mean i just want to feel safe. and cuddle and kiss but i guess that will happen in time i guess karma is coming back with a fierce revenge for all the relationships i have screwed up on in the past but it will soon pass and if it doesn't kill me it will only make me stronger
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