|Current mood:|| thoughtful|
Chris... Learning to Love
I used to think it was impossible for me to love again... I doubted even more that it would be Chris who would show me that it is possible... I used to think everyone who said they were madly in love with someone, was only kidding themselves... I thought it wasn't possible for someone to fall so deeply in love with another person... That is... Until I met Chris... He showed me that I could fall in love with someone... And he showed me how good it feels to do it... He also showed me how bad it felt to lose the one you love... And he showed me how wonderful it felt to get that person back... I fell in love with Chris the very first time I saw him, although, I would never have told anyone that... I was strongly warned against wanting to be anything with him because of his reputation for being an asshole... But, me being the person that I am, I ignored all the warnings i received... I'm almost certain I snuck out every night the week after I met him... LOL, I love his motorcycle... Not because of the reason most people believe a girl likes motorcycles (the feel of it between their legs), but because it gave me an excuse to wrap my arms around him and hold myself as close to him as I possibly could... Later, I didn't even need an excuse, I could hug him and be close to him all I wanted... Some people think I'm crazy, and I really don't care, but I love every single inch of his body... It's funny, I love to just kiss him... Not just on his lips, although his lips are very sweet to kiss, I love to kiss his body, along his neck, across his shoulders, down his arms and chest, down his stomach, and along his thighs... Lightly sucking on his earlobe or his fingers, or gently nibbling at his lower lip or his neck... To lay close to him is a blessing, I am thankful for every second... Thankful for the warmth of his breath against my skin, melting me to the core... Thankful for his strong arms wrapped about my body, feeling safe and secure in his embrace... Thankful for the everlasting sweet taste of his kiss, feeling as if I'd faint if my lips should pull away from his... And yet, it has only been two and a half months... He has taught me so much in such a short time... Should we truly break up... I will no doubt cry again as I did before... *Le sigh*... Unfortunately for every guy that I may date after him, I will always compare them to him... Sadly, I doubt any would live up to him... Well... I am off to bed, I am very tired and have a bad day ahead of me tomorrow... Toodles...