fears
I have this best friend who migrated to the states. We've known each other since we were kids and like what I said I consider her as my best friend. Around 3 years ago they left for the states so I only get to communicate with her through email and text messages. Well I checked out her blog this evening and as I was reading her blog I realized how she has changed. I'm afraid we're growing apart:(...when we see each other we'd probably find ourselves searching for things to talk about...she's living a life that is entirely different from mine. She's got new friends now...she's living her dream of becoming a singer...she's really matured in her faith and she has a social life...then I look at myself...I realize that I'm such a loser. Why is life like this??? Is it because I'm sitting around here asking these questions??? I don't think so...I don't sit around here all day...lol...I'm living a life...I have a job...I have a ministry in our church...I still sing...but if I put my life against hers people would definitely know who's living a good life. I know it may sound as if I'm envious of her life...well I must admit I'm a bit envious but what I'm feeling right now is more of FEAR...fear of realizing later on when I'm older that I didn't live life...fear of finding myself alone without friends when I grow older...fear of never experiencing what it's like to love...I have all these fears and i think they're making me paralyzed:(
I miss my friend:(
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