|Current mood:|| crushed|
comma oh gus...
well everyone. gus and i have parted ways. but not. he still believes that we can be in each others lives for years. i'm sorry, but he is not matt, or boosh for that matter. he could never be as important to me as those 2. he had his chance with me, and i may not be beautiful or stunning, but i had a lot to give. i would have given him the world if i could, but looking at it now, what did i have? nothing. he never treated me very well. and i would have done anything for him. we are seeing each other hopefully wednesday and thursday. it will be nice, to see how exactly we can be friends. i just want someone to actually give me what i can give them. what is so bad about me? why can't i find love? there's nothing wrong with me. there cant be. i am a snazzy catch, and any guy would be lucky to have me. is that what you all want to hear?
oh gus, to be in your arms tonight would be something so many have sought after. i had you for myself, and you couldn't do it. you had all of me for you and you didnt want it.
i will be ignored again, but i will stand by it. i will put up with it, because it's him. i know i couldn't do better than him. sorry.