| Current mood: |  crushed |
| Current music: | Devotchkas- Sorry. |
in need to get outta here...
well the fucking deed is done i guess.
i thought be and him were already broken up.
im just really slow i guess, he didnt want to be a pussy about it and so he waited after for me in person.
i didnt no that he was waiting for me so me sarah m and kortney were hanging out after skewl with brad and all of them. then someone came up to me and told me he was waiting there. well i got really fucking confused about that so i walked up to him and heres our convo:
"what r u doing here? i though we broke up and stuff..."
"i didnt want to be a pussy about it so i came to see u and tell u in person"
"uhh okie" ::note im trying as hard as i fucking can NOT to look at him because i no if i do then ill see him and no what the fuck im gonna be missing::
"i dont want to be a bad boyfriend and not be here for u and have u be everyday like 'o hes not here, o hes not here' so yea"
"okie. i understand"
then he put his arm on my shoulder and said
"thats y u were always rad. were still buds rite?"
and of course i said yea.
i wantd to get outta there as soon as i fucking could so me and sarah m walked to del taco ::there was no where else to go.::
i didnt wanna cry cause ive already cried about it ya no?
well i did cry and it was funny cause me and sarah were the only ones in del taco and shes hugging me and im cry.
what a sight to see huh?
i no me and him have been broken up for what? one hour or something,
i miss him......so fucking bad......
anyone who says to u, its better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all is full of shit cause id rather not have loved anyone at all and not felt this way ever.
i dont want to feel this way again and i dont think im gonna be so gulible as to fall for someone so deep.
i no he wants me to be happy and shit and i understand y he broke up with me.
it just hurts.
a lot.
and
im not gonna let anyone make me feal this "heart broken" or whatever u kall it again.
i dont kare who it is.
im not falling again.
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