|Current mood:|| weird|
|Current music:||afi - paper airplanes (makeshift wings)|
yeah.. i got a new user name for my journal. i was so tired of all that imaginary hello shit. so i had to change it. but anyways. school was actually great, then i got home and slept, then got ready for the foozball game.......it was alright untill about the 4th quarter when my stomache started to hurt and i started realizing how depressed i really was. everyonne there had their boyfriends/girlfriends and they all looked so happy. i jsut ealized just how much i want that.. then it started to blow.. yeah, then krash said shit to lee. which i though was VERY rude. and she was like fight him fight him fight him!! fuck thati was fucking sick and hes fucking strong. so then i got pissed and went over and sat in a coorner.. but then i i could see jeff davis and katie. and katie fucking knew i liked him! but she had to fucking go and take him. that little hoe.. wait.. i'll get to this later.. but anyway so i backed up and leaned on the school and started crying.. i sat there by myself for a while then shell came over and i stopped she didnt really notice so that was good.. but anyways, back to the katie - jeff thing. she fucking knew i liked him, i dont ebven think she had a clue of who he was till i pionted him out. then she fucking goes and asks him out. that little hoe was supposed to be my friend. hah! i guess that goes to show me that i shouldnt trust anyone. he wont even talk to me now. fuck her she deserves to die i dont care if she fucking lives with her aunt that hates her. she probablly has good reason to! i mean, she hasnt come home and just crawled in her bed the past week cause she was lonley. guck her. im going to choke that hoe. anyways, then we all just chilled for a while... and i talked to david. hah. he gave me a boost he was like no girl is fat until her stomache goes further out than her tits. haha.. that was a good debate. so then it was time for the dance.. i still feel like sht and so i get in there and just sit down in the gym. and wath everyone. then lee tries to get me up and i dont then i walk over and beat eric up and danielle tries to cheer me up. that didnt work either.. but beating eric up helped..... so then i go out of the gm and sit there for a while then i go back in and beat eric up again.. then im all happy and giddy.. so i go dance.. then at the end they played a slpow song and i got depressed again. so the its all over and i had to bring eric home again.. so he went and said bye to his 56754165454165420132498541546513216541323498412 friends.. and yet agin, i was depressed cause of it. so we start walking out and then e drop himoff then i got hom, and got on aim.. talked to david for like 10 minutes and he went to find fro and i went and cried myself to sleep, again. so then i woke up and was told to cut the grass... i did then tom all of a sudden leaves, i get done walk inside and theres my mom sitting there crying and shes talking about divoricing my dad and all this shit. so im like fuck it and go in my rooma nd do what i do best, cry. and well, i guess thats about it for today and yesterday. peace.