|Current mood:|| pissed off|
guess what. ARGH i really gotta let out some steam here. cause my other blog is really too 'clean'. lol. but nvm here i go...
i got back my friggin report book. FUCK. ok. bad results. i mean, is it really the bad carma? or is it just me? hmm. then let my dad see it.
im really pissed now. i GOT into express. i GOT into 4 express w/o staying back. w/o the teachers help. yet you're still so LAME. with the capital letters. man i hate u. u know how much i studied? this exam i really put in loadsa effort. wtfh la. asshole. and now he says i've gotta do 4 hrs of work. damn it.
not only are my results stressed. now my maid's gone. and we hafta do house work. WHY CAN'T THEY JUST FRIGGING GET A MAID?? damn. and they make me clean clean clean. WTFUCK lah.
and about my results. im SCREWD Lah. dad's gonna make me work hard. i mean, i CAN and i WILL work hard on my own when i want to. but if pple force me, TRUST me i WON'T. i promise u. I won't work hard. and i won't put in ALL my effort lor. 1 simply reason, I DON'T LIKE TO BE FORCED. so yeah. stop trying to force me. cause i won't work under pressure.
damn it. im friggin pissed now. i wish my godparents were by my side now. i wish i could live with them when their married. oops what am i saying? I WILL LIVE WITH THEM when they get married. woots. can't wait. and when GOD comes back, I ALSO CAN'T WAIT. cause, im gonna be with my Father who understands me. who UNDERSTANDS ME. dad u get it? the feeling of trust and everything ain't there no more.
last time, dad used to come home and play with us. joke, and blah. NOW? i can't even tell him my results. i can't even ASK him. ok pple u hear this. i can't even ASK him a simple qn like, " dad can i go out?" i CAN'T. because he'll say NO. and gimme long chapters. FUCK again.
i know im pretty vulgar in this post. who the fuck cares how vulgar am i? fcuk fcuk fcuk. other pple's dad can understand them. ARGH. why can't u understand me?? and. im alrdy depressed enough DAD. im already. u think i want this results is it. if i can i'd retake the WHOLE sec 3 again. but the principal wun give me another chance. DAD how'd u think i feel?? if only u knew... dad if only u knew...
but i doubt u'd know. cause u ain't that DAD i want u to be. u ain't like that DAD everyone else has. and lastly, you ain't my GODPA who promises he'll be there for me and actually KEEPS the promise. unlike u dad.