|Current mood:|| confused|
|Current music:||"break away" kelly clarkson|
i feel like im going in circles, like emotionally. spirals that are done in words is what comes to mind. if i knew how thats how id right this. if i were jst sad...i could understand, i mean i miss my love, butt im not just sad...i cried this evening, in the shower. ive never cried in the shower before. the shower is my escape, butt maybe i WAS escaping. im sorry everythings so contridicting right now, thats how i feel. "its your fault, its mine, its yours, it mine.." butt who are you and who am i? im the one in the bathtub my face soaked in water and in tears. butt why? this is what i know little about. and now i dont know why i am writing all of this because i am fine. weird how that works huh? in a few minutes ill prollie get back on and start writing again...maybe...maybe not...whatever...