|Current mood:|| gloomy|
|Current music:||"blouvard of broken dreams"--greenday|
im on pain killers...keep that in mind...
so...i want to scratch my self with my bare hands until i bleed...i hate knowing things...sometimes i wish that i wasnt intuitive and that i wasnt that way i wouldnt know all things i know aht i dont want to know...i dont want to forget really...butt i just wish that i didnt know them in the first place...they just complicate things...i wish that that i could find a place in time and totally erase(sp?) everything that happened before that...not just in my mind butt in everyone elses also...then no one would kno that they happened...we'd all still remember the lessons we learned we just wouldnt kno how we learned them...everything would be so much easier then....many tears would be kept from falling and many times blood would be kept within the confines of our skin...butt this will never happen...so the tears and the blood will never cease to escape our ever present bodies...