| Current mood: |  depressed |
| Current music: | Mest-"I Melt With You" <--Mine and Joels song ::cries:: |
I'm sorry...forgive me?
::is still thinking about hers and Kenny's conversation::
Whoa...I actually had a decent conversation with Kenny...he made me relize something....I cannot let people just walk all over me anymore. He also made me relize that true friends stay loyal in times like the ones I'm having right now...so thank you Brit...and I guess Kenny...woot and Officer Mikey...and ew Pierre ew ::laughs softly::
Kenny was right though...I cant let people walk all over me...I sit there and take Billy smacking me ::doesnt wants to say what shes about to say so she wont:: I mean...I will admit...the stuff he says about me being a "fucking whore"...it hurts..really badly. I never ment to hurt him...honestly...but Kenny made me relize that I just shouldnt care. It will take time but I'll try to not care.
I also should have taken into consideration of what Marshall said a few weeks back. He told me that a man should always have time for his girl...no matter what ::shrugs:: I guess he's right. I love Joel...I always will ::sighs looking at a picture of him:: Hes the only person that can hold me and stop me from crying, while telling me everything will be alright ::laughs softly trying to get rid of the tears that are in her eyes:: I was looking back at some logs...I found something...It's for Billy ::laughs softly:: Dont ask me why I'm putting this in my post but I am...I guess it's just another way to say that I'm sorry.
Once upon a time there was a young boy named Billy ::smiles:: He was only 18 and in love with a man who was 20. This mans name was...BENJI! ::giggles:: Well everytime Benji was with him...he cheated on Billy...yet Billy took him back again and again. Others didn't know why Billy took him back....but when they were together....they loved eachother deeply.
One day...after numorus times Benji had cheated on poor Billy he got up and just left. Benji just left everything. Some guitiars, clothes, CD's, but more importantly...the one he loved. He didn't know why. Hell, nobody did...he just walked out one day. And of course Billy was devastated by this...I mean who woudln't be. He thought Benji was going to come home...like he always did...but he didn't that night.
Billy got scared....it wasn't like Benji to do something like that. So he thought they were over for good. Of course they still loved eachother deeply. In their hearts that is. It hurt Billy so much to see Benji with another person and the same for Billy. They knew they needed eachother. They needed eachother to survive...to live...to love.
So finally one day...Billy told Benji that this just couldn't be. They needed to be with eachother. Benji agreed and Billy told him that Benji ever hurt him again....there were no more chances...he was out of Billy's life for good. He was sick and tired to being treated like a doormat. Benji agreed and actually never cheated again. He loved Billy and he didnt wanna fuck this time up.
::smiles:: Well soon Benji and Billy got married and they lived happily ever after. No cheating, no lying, no secrets. Just pure love. They were so happy. They didn't need anything but eachother and that was true. They loved eachother deeply and nothing would stop them from loving eachother...nothing was going to get in their way this time -the end-
::shrugs:: I hope you remembered that one ::laughs softly:: I really am sorry Billy ::nods then walks away::
~*Sam*~
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