| Current mood: | sad |
| Current music: | Marah Carey .. When I Saw You |
I hate the fact that instead of going to look for someone to love me, I sit at home and continuously love someone who - in retrospect, I will never be with. It's impossible and will never happen. Not in any lifetime.
I know that there's so much for me than the litter of runts over here. I just feel as though I'm completely missing out and I hate that feeling. Everyone fantasizes about their perfect someone. Every girl knows somewhere deep inside what her "Prince Charming" will look like. How he will be, what his flaws are. Maybe some of us are lucky enough to find him. I'd like to be a part of that lucky group. Wouldn't everyone love to be? I guess I'm just sick of meeting guys who just - they're not for me. And I refuse to be with someone just because I can't find anyone better. I refuse to be with someone I'll just settle for. Hell, no one wants to be with someone anyone settles for. I just have that sinking feeling that maybe I'll never find him. Not in this lifetime anyway. How pathetic do I sound? I'd go look for him but I'll never find him that way. I guess I'll take that advice:
"Don't look for love, it will find you."
I just heard that my brother got married without telling anyone. And that I'm going to be an aunt. -Sits in stunned silence.- I really need to get around more to talk to everyone. Congratulations. Joel, I really do need to talk to you alone. I don't want to say these things in my journal. That's pathetic.
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