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Convo with Kia
(`·. Okay, so something's wrong .·´)
Mk, I was feeling a little weird and my Wifey helped me out <333 Not my real Wifey, one of my best friends. I have a boyfriend people. xD But yeah, she helped me out. It's weird how I'm everyone els's therapists but need others to help me when I have problems. ;x I'm glad they're here tho. <333 he convo basically summarizes how my night went. My day, went to interview, loved it in the beginning, they wanted money, in the end we walked out. ;] Fell asleep alittle, did some packing for my trip to my cousin's house tomorrow. I'm staying a few days so I won't be updating anytime soon. No change there. ;x And Theon's having a bbq tomorrow for Father's Day so wo0p. That's it. Holla <33
ISimpIy Poetic: Yeah..
TaYnEtEdInOcEnSe: So what's up?
ISimpIy Poetic: Wish I knew. I'm in a weird mood. I can describe it but I dun know why I feel the way I do.
TaYnEtEdInOcEnSe: Well describe because you're talking to the queen of mood swings .
ISimpIy Poetic: I finished watching this movie and the strangest feeling came over me.
ISimpIy Poetic: I feel like everything is perfect.. but I'm still not happy.
ISimpIy Poetic: I know they say you're never satisfied with life no matter how much you accumulatye
ISimpIy Poetic: but I don't want more. It's something else.
ISimpIy Poetic: It's like.. I got what I want.. but I don't want it.. or I'm not happy with it..
TaYnEtEdInOcEnSe: Its like you're missing something ?
ISimpIy Poetic: Or something's where it's not supposed to be or... I dun know, something's out of place.
TaYnEtEdInOcEnSe: I've felt that way before, but it all had to do with a guy and I know this isnt about that one guy
ISimpIy Poetic: I dun know, it might be.
TaYnEtEdInOcEnSe: Have you talked to him lately?
ISimpIy Poetic: It's only been like, what, 13 days or so but something either seems too perfect.. or maybe I'm too used to relationships goin wrong, I dun know.
ISimpIy Poetic: Yeah, he's been at my house since we came back from the interview thing.
ISimpIy Poetic: He left an hour ago or so.
TaYnEtEdInOcEnSe: Oh ok, you're basically detaching yourself from the situation because you're waiting for something to go completely wrong, basically you're expecting the worse from a situation that you're not sure about
ISimpIy Poetic: Exactly. I'm expecting him to go to college and cheat on me, giving me a way out and being left with another relationship gone wrong and me crying in my soup.
TaYnEtEdInOcEnSe: Lol. Aww, but you know what the more you think about it like that the more likely it is to happen. I know you had a couple of bad relationships, but you can't peg every relationship as an accident waiting to happen, because it will become just that.
ISimpIy Poetic: Something's missing. It's like... the way me and cle were.. me and him are now.. like every relationship first starting out with the no flaws yet.. I never found any flaws in Cle, he just didn't feel the way I did or he did and his sister's made him scared and ran him off, that situation will forever be an unsolved mystery. Anyway, I decided that I fell too easily in love with Cle and I'm not letting that happen with Boottee so I'm just living in today and crap like that
ISimpIy Poetic: Maybe that's what's changed. Maybe I shouldn't do that because now I feel like there's no point in my dating him if I dun eventually think it'll go anywhere.
ISimpIy Poetic: But I dun think it'll go there because I'm not allowing myself to get my hopes up and then be let down.
TaYnEtEdInOcEnSe: Exactly, but sometimes you just got gotta put yourself out there and I know you've done that a couple of times so I know you arent gonna just jump up and do that. However you gotta ask yourself if he is worth it.
ISimpIy Poetic: Because I've liked him since 9th grade, it's weird because it was always a physical attraction. I get to know him, we become best friends, it's great. Something just screams... I dun know
ISimpIy Poetic: It's possible for a relationship to be perfect and there be bliss. I know that exists. Especially early because you're enjoying being around each other so.. maybe I should wait it out and let things go over the month limit before I actually make a decision.
TaYnEtEdInOcEnSe: Yeah I think your mind is messing with you, I think it would be best to chill out and let things flow. And if you still feel the same way over time, then you need to make a choice.
ISimpIy Poetic: - Nod. -
ISimpIy Poetic: - Hugs. - Tankie Wifey.
TaYnEtEdInOcEnSe: -Hugs.- Anytime.
Just to make it clear, there ARE two Beautiful songs by IMx Ms. Tiffany ;o There's a Beautiful(You Are) a.k.a my wedding song and they was a song on one of their first albums titled Beautiful, which is why the newest one had to have you are on the end! I know my IMx woman! I'm an addicted fan! ;p
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