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| Current music: | waste of paint - bright eyes |
fuck my pathetic little life.
adam called me today. he said he was free tomorrow to do something.
oh god, i have such a huge ..... AHH on him.
and as much as i like him, i know nothing will come of it.
even if he happens to return the affection, nothing more can come from it. tide pool hopping and one satisfactory kiss will be the end of it. and it hurts, because there arent many people that i have ever felt so strongly for.
christ, when he hung up the phone, i screamed and jumped around my room uncontrollably. but how could anyone blame me?! he is so kind, and polite, and respectful. and even after all of that glory, he still happens to be really easy to be around, and so much fun to talk to.
i certainly dont feel this way about aaron. not nick either.
god this is weird. i have this, empty, satisfied feeling in me. im happy i know him, and im happy i feel about him that way, but god......... ah why cant i be older?! i cant find anyone my age that i like, because theyre all sex crazed, irresponsible assholes.
and i finally stumble across a purely wonderful person. and a relashionship is so impossible its fatal.
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