The Black Swan, aka Ugly Little Rubber Duckling (rubber_duckiez) wrote, @ 2003-12-29 14:36:00

Well, using one of misscharlie's templates my brother has been in the process of creating a nice layout for me. It is still under construction, so if anyone has any suggestions we would love to have them!

Now the last few days have been dense for all of us. Derek is still struggling with meningitis and its results, most of them we hope to be only temporary.

What makes life a lot harder at home is the presence of Kevin's parents. While I find them delightful I can absolutely sense the tension between them and Kevin. That makes it harder for the kids as well as for us. I think this is what it is like if my father and I are in the same city. Seriously.

The other day I had to take Matthew to Vienna to get some new clothes made for him, and while their I stopped by at the hospital. Because of some Christmas miracle I was allowed to take him upstairs to see Derek through the glass door. Matthew was dressed in little scrubs, a little mask, booties, and he had a blast discovering everything. I doubt he actually saw Derek, but hey, the important thing is that Derek saw him!

Jim and I went skiing yesterday, actually left the day before and we skied all morning and came back when it started to get dark. It was really nice, I love skiing! That was one great thing about living in Utah, skiing all the time. Now please do not tell my doctor about that. He wouldn't be too pleased! But skiing was fun, more fun then getting my vaccinations again, the first of which I am scheduled to have in a few months. Brrr.

I just made stew, fed the twins, set the table and decided not to eat. I will take a nap instead. And dream of a time when we have children.

Somehow I just started to want children after spending these two months caring for the kids. Provided, Jim has a daughter, Hannah, and I really enjoy having her here. But she won't be here for the rest of her life. And suddenly... I don't want anything in life, but a family. I wish there was a chance for me.

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