|Current mood:|| crappy|
|Current music:||Cant be your friend anymore - rushlow|
I* dont even *know
This thing thats come between us cant be ignored. ive taken all i can. this is where its gotta end. cus i cant be your friend anymore..
and i cant be accused of not bein there for you. How many nites have you shown up at my door? i hope you understand. that this wasnt in my plans, but i cant be your friend anymore.
killing me to know you
without havin a chance to hold you
and all i wanna do is show you
how i really feel inside
and you can run at me
you can laugh at me
or you can walk right out that door
but i cant be your friend anymore...
d e d i k a t e d*
Okay so its been a while like... 3 months maybe? update on summer. i went like everywhere with dan. Sox cames, movies, lots of stuff... it was fun. we now have a fighting ground at stony creek. hehe fun times.
well we are in touch and then he has a mood swing and tells me to never talk to him anymore. but then 2 days prior to that he was telling me that he really loves me. we talked on the phone from 11-2 AM.
which i felt bad about cus i have a bf. YES i said bf.
its so weird. its taking sum getting used to and i dont even kno what i feel to be honest with you. because hes 2 years younger than me.... and hes not adam. it kinda makes me feel weird.
like i cant picture loving anyone but adam and he has absolutely no problem telling any other gurl he loves them. i wish shed die because she took away everything ive ever had...
its not entirely her fault hes the one that chose to leave
i keep telling myself hes no good. hes not a good bf. he cheats on her all the time... and blah blah. i just really miss his friendship. i miss him calling at 11 37. i miss our"love" haha. that we created... but now that means nothing because he does that with her too.
thats another point i have yet to make. i cant do enthing with my current bf cus its weird.... i feel like im molesting him lol. thats why i dont c how adam could have sex with his gf.... it grosses me out.
i mean i really like matt hes a great bf, he watches his language in frunna me hehe and hes so kind + hott. i just wish he was 2 years older dammit. hes gonna get his tongue peirced when hes 16....why cant he be 16 now? that pisses me off!!! Lol a HOTT bf with a tongue RING yum!!! gotta test drive that shit! hehe
im supposed to go to dreamreapers tonite. im so scared i dont wanna go at all.
but im out
ill write later