| Current mood: | depressed |
| Current music: | Dashboard |
lets pertend to smile
I layed infront of my door for a half an hour. Hoping someone would care enough to come upstairs and see what was wrong with me. When they did the door would swing and hit my head. Hopefully hard. Noone came. No one cared. They dont care that I'm crying over the one person who I told myself i coundnt cry over. They dont care that their was red liquid pouring from my wrists. They dont care that there is a chunk of my hair laying on the floor. They dont care that theres now a bruise on my head. They dont care that a lighter has been in my hand for 2 days, wishing he didnt care if I lit that one ciggarette.
They dont realize that I was blasting music that came close to pushing me just that much farther. They dont realize that anythings wrong with me, I wont let them.
-kaitlin michelle
I wish I was more: honest
I wish I wasn't so: jealous
Things that make me feel better:
[cutting, burning, drinking, sleeping, listening to music, smoking, cleaning, smashing my head, talking to people, seeing him, crying, bleeding, screaming, taking walks at night]
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