"i don't mind the horror that surrounds me."
i need to be someone else just for a while. no, forever. someone good. i need the release that comes with being thin, i need skinniness.
food is over-rated.
i hate being like this. it's not cool, it's not glamorous, but i need it. i can't eat, not right now.
oh if only i could be skinny. properly skinny. i'm not even medically underweight at the moment... well, i'm on the verge of being so, but not yet. oh but a few more pounds, a few more days of eating very little or nothing at all and i'll be there. hopefully. oh i must.