|Current mood:|| uncomfortable|
|Current music:||International Pop Overthrow- Melancholy 31|
well. Well well well. Nothin much to say....I made all of my entries private a while back so Sarah's mom couldn't find them and read them, but I think it's safe now. :-) Today we went to the Tahoma Nat'l Cemetary and it made me so sad, cuz none of my classmates cared about the ppl they were just runnin around and being dickheads. It makes me really depressed. What makes me sadder is how adults never like teens. Have you noticed that? I mean, no wonder teenagers are all so bitter and depressed, because their elders hate them!! I was talking about this with my mom and it became a chicken-or-the-egg discussion. Meh. I hate those.
Tayler is starting to get too physical with me. He keeps kissing me and licking me and holding me so I can't wriggle free, and it's making me scared. I like him, and I like hugs from him, but that's as far as it goes. I hate being treated like a whore. Seriously, all you boys need to back the fuck up. I'll play your stupid little games for as long as I have to, but in the end, what do I have to do to get your goddamned respect? I am NOT a fucking ditz-plaything like Kaylene. DON'T mistake me for that. >.<
The lesbian population at our school has exploded. More drama to deal with, lol! It makes me both happy and sad, happy cuz it's acceptable now but sad because I know some of these people aren't being real. BEING A LESBIAN ISN'T JUST ABOUT HAVING A DAYDREAM ABOUT KISSING A GIRL!
Tayler thinks hes bi, and he wants to try it out with Austin Tinius. I really don't think Austin is bi tho. Eh, it's all greek to me. There are so many people I know just fucking around with each other, it just makes me wanna stop the world and say "what ever happened to morals?!!?!?!?!?!!!?!?!!!!" I don't see how you can share yourself with so many random people. I mean I have no problem with 3 or 4 or maybe even 6 if you "loved" them all, but not with people you don't care about. Oh well. I've gone off about this before.
Everyone and everything is pissing me off with their fakeness! I am pissing myself off even, with all my namby pamby shitfaced lying and faking and shit.
I just want peace of mind and honesty. That's my only wish.