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are we wasting our whole lives sucking candy-coated bullets from the chemical gun?
i figured it was time for an update.
so, the victory dance was last friday (nov. 28th). there are some pictures here. i'm just too lazy to copy & paste that entry from the eljay to the blur-tay. everyone looked spectacular, you should really check out the photos ;)
work has been the same. usual 5 hour shifts every sunday night until closing.
but tonight lois let me out 30 minutes early, which i was happy to do. yesterday was my first FUN day at big y. EVER. there was no one there due to the storm, so we just did whatever we wanted. which included val ordering in chinese food and then watching people do donuts in the parking lot.
friday was INSANE at big y. everyone and their brother came in because they had to "stock up" for this big nasty storm (note the sarcasm). i didn't even get a break cuz it was so damn busy.
christmas is almost here. which means all the decorations are going up around the neighborhood, and it's almost time to get our tree!
christmas is my ultimate favorite holiday, even though i don't believe in religion. but the spirit of it is just so wonderful!
on a more personal level, i've been having some ups and downs. i get stupidstupidstupid thoughts in my head, and then i get nervous and start convincing myself that i do in fact have reason to be so doubtful, but then i feel guilty for ever even thinking that way. and then i get so confused and upset that i break down and cry because i have no idea what else to do. and still, i don't know why i get so worried.
and lately i'm starting to worry that i'm losing my best friend. we never hang out anymore. one of us is always busy doing something else with someone else. we're both going through some tough shit, and it's not easy not having my best friend in the whole wide world there to talk to.
but at the same time, i'm so deep in love that there is nothing out there that could kill me.
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