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My Sweet Baby Kitty
How would you love to get up early on a friday morning full of anticipation to see the Van's wrapped tour and then get a phone call at 7:30 from your brother in tears. You've never heard him soooooo upset in your life. At first you have no idea who it isk, the tears cover up the voice and then it hits you it's your brother. He's calling you upset and you can only think of your cat. Your baby who was living with him in Phoenix because you couldn't have a cat. You know before he even says it that she is dead. You pieced it all together and then he tells you. "Rachel Blackie's dead, she got hit by a car". He's so upset you dont know what to do but instead of breaking down and crying you tell your brothe it is all right. You tell him it wasn't his fault and that she is in a better place. "I have her body and I dont know what to do with it but I'm not going to just throw it away I think I'm gonna burry her" I'm glad she deserves at least that much. She deserves to be burried because she was the kindest, most caring, most understanding, most beautifil and sofest cat I have ever had. She was my baby, My sweet baby kitty and I loved her so much. My brother was upset wondering who was gonna sleep next to him because after his girlfriend of 3 years left Blackie took her place. She laid on my brothers pillow, sat in his lap and loved him and helped him to keep his sanity as she did for me. I cant believer she is gone. I hung up the phone and kept getting ready. But my mom came in and hugged me and asked me what happend and I broke down. How horrible I havn't seen my cat since November and I talked to her twice since she has been gone! I didn't get to say good bye, I didn't get to pat her on the head and give her one last kiss. She's gone gone and I'll never see her again until I die. No one could understand the bond between me and my kitty. She was my sanity, the core of my love. The only thing to love me no matter what I did or said. She was the best creature in my life. I was already missing her everyday and now I get to miss her the rest of my life. Oh How I wish I went to Arizona after graduation, then I would have seen her. I would have gotten to see her one last time. Tell her how much I love her and how much I miss her. All I have now are pictures and memories. I cant believe that my baby is dead. She is gone, gone to a better place. She gets to visit Charley and they get to play together now. I'm gonna miss her so god damn much. Rest in Peace Blackie Midnight Panther Space Tust!