|Current mood:|| contemplative|
I thought it was ok with me, I thought I matured...but then again I was wrong. Its still the same old me, paranoid of past lovers/exs.
Now the question is, should I ask her to totally drop her ties with the inner group or not?
A part of me is saying yes and another part is telling me not to.
Forgive me, but Im trying hard to trust her...yeah I do trust her...As shed asked me to...
But then again, I could not read what's really on her mind...furthermore I don't even know
if she still writes in that private journal where I discovered some "truths" that really hurt me
If only, I could be more stoic about things...but then again I wouldn't want that to happen
as I know it would be the beginning of the end of our relationship...
Sigh...now who says, its difficult to love me?