|Current mood:|| blah|
so i went out with katie, katy, desi, and kirsten last night. it was overall fun. but i wanted to get up half way through the movie and go call gabby. I wish I had, but I didn't know if she'd pick up her phone.
today she said that she wants to get me pregnant, but that doesn't matter cause i probably don't want kids. I never planned on getting married, i never planned on having kids. Meeting her and falling in love with her changed everything. I now need to re-think everything. I had focused on getting through college and worrying about a career, not a family. Cause I never thought i'd find anyone. and now i acctually have to think about kids. Which means i have to change what i thought i'd be doing. If we have kids i'm not going to be one of those stay at home moms. I want to be able to work, at the very least I want to be working at an aquarium. I want to be some place like that where I will be putting my education to use, and still be able to continue learning. I've considered becoming a teacher, but I honestly couldn't handle that. I'd have to be in a class where the kids acctually want to learn. Not like my oceanography class. I still feel so incredibly sorry for Mrs. Delgado. I'd have to teach a college class in order to handle a teaching job.
then today is our anniversery. I knew it was today, but i can't keep track of what day it is anymore. and i didn't realize today was sunday. but she can't even remember what day we met. it honestly feels like we've been together forever. like months at least not just the one. she said after we got off that night she knew i was hers. aww. and we never asked the other out (for lack of a better word). we just went. and i think thats how love should be.