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love me , fuck me, and then fuck me again
I am sick of all of it. sick of the world. sick of the ineternet. Sick of not being able to focus. but mostly sick of being alone. I want someone. I wanna fuck their brains out. For once I want someone to take an interest in me. The one guy who did wound up being my bestfriends boyfriend. It just fucking figures. Well she came on to him, while when he came onto me REALLY strong, I just pulled back. I dunno, I think at that part though I knew she liked him. I get along great with guys, as along as its plutonic. Like when she started going out with him we got along great again.
She wanted to go out with koichi, AGAIN, lately. I am sick of hannah crossing the friendship boundaries. I mean its okay everyonce and a while when someone is your goodfriend and you truely feel like its something moore but seriously. Grady, Andrew, I mean those two were only her good friends. She was "friends" with John. I think sean was her only non-friend friendship. I just don't want her recking anything but I think our circle of friends is already screwed. I mean, FUCK, I never see ANYONE anymore. Hannah never calls. Vanessa calls me, but the ways she does I can't handel it. Koichi is the only one who makes me want to leave me room. Hes so sweet. I wish I could be as nice to him as he is to me. Just when I feel like I have no friends in the world he ims me all "what are you up to, I feel like seeing you." God hes the best. I guess thats why I don't want Hannah going out with him. I don't want her to hurt him. Like she hurt sean or something. I mean, with all of the guys she went out with I was always on her side. But koichi, if anything between them happened I wouldn't know what to do. his first relationship shouldn't be like that.
I don't understand why he does not have a girl friend. Seriously, he is a perfect guy. Who knows. I guess its because he doesn't chase girls. Maybe hes gay--although I seriously doubt that. it a REALLLY REALLLY big way. Just because you r not dating the opposite sex does not mean you don't like them. THis comming from a girl who everyone thought was a lesbian in the 6th grade just because she didn't obesses about what boy she had a crush on.
all the same, I am horny and sick of being lonely.
FUCK FUCK FUCK
doesn't anyone want to fuck me?!?!?!
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