|Current music:||Fall Out Boy: Nobody Puts Baby in the Corner|
>> blaming everyone but me for this mess
Alright.. this is going to be an extremely short update. My (ex)boyfriend ran his mouth to the wrong people. Bragging about how he hooked up with his ex-girlfriend's bestfriend, me, and that I'm a virgin so he doesn't want to take my virginity but that I say he's the master at everything else. Okay.. we've barely even kissed we cuddle more than anything. I don't know why he thinks he needs to be so cool but whatever. I am a pretty stubbron person and was pretty fed up after hearing this and wouldn't even talk to him. He grew frustrated, naturally, but obsessively so. He would show up at my house randomly. Wait around the corner and follow the car I was in. Or once, I stayed the night at my friend's house, and he showed up on her doorstep at 8 o'clock in the morning. On the phone, he said "If you're not going to come out here and talk to me right now, I don't think we should see eachother anymore." I replied, "Okay." and hung up. I was through dealing with him.
Anyway.. I honestly don't think I'm meant for relationships, because it didn't even hurt and I didn't even care. I lose interest within a couple of weeks, and even when I have interest I crave it from other people. I don't know what I want or who I want it with.. but for now I'm content without it.
I'm also doing bad and illegal things and spending my money on things I shouldn't.. figure it out. But.... I'm so happy. Except I wish I wasn't so damn fat.