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Queen Of Pain (queenofpain3) wrote,
@ 2006-08-09 03:24:00
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    I don't deserve him
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    anderson71288 (12:03:35 AM): hey baby
    StellarChic625 (12:03:41 AM): hey
    StellarChic625 (12:03:43 AM): what's up?
    anderson71288 (12:04:11 AM): not much just got back from helpin emily pack
    StellarChic625 (12:04:22 AM): ooh I see, how was that
    anderson71288 (12:04:49 AM): it was alright.....she wrote me a pretty amazing letter....and it makes me kinda sad
    anderson71288 (12:04:57 AM): and happy at the same time
    anderson71288 (12:04:59 AM): your in it
    StellarChic625 (12:05:01 AM): aw, I'm sorry
    StellarChic625 (12:05:04 AM): eh?
    anderson71288 (12:06:11 AM): she was just sayin how much lately she can tell that im happy and shes pretty sure its because of you and if you make me this happy then your by far alright for her
    StellarChic625 (12:07:27 AM): that's nice of her
    anderson71288 (12:08:11 AM): so how was your day?
    StellarChic625 (12:08:24 AM): it was alrighty
    StellarChic625 (12:08:38 AM): pretty boring
    StellarChic625 (12:08:40 AM): yours?
    anderson71288 (12:09:01 AM): alright i guess
    anderson71288 (12:09:15 AM): i took matt to football practice and that was about it
    StellarChic625 (12:09:35 AM): did you work at all?
    anderson71288 (12:09:47 AM): nope
    anderson71288 (12:10:31 AM): did you end up seein your brother?
    StellarChic625 (12:10:47 AM): nope
    StellarChic625 (12:10:53 AM): he called and said he was coming in a few hours
    StellarChic625 (12:10:57 AM): but never showed up
    anderson71288 (12:11:08 AM): im sorry
    StellarChic625 (12:11:28 AM): *shrug* doesn't really matter to me
    anderson71288 (12:12:07 AM): is something wrong?
    anderson71288 (12:12:11 AM): just wonderin
    StellarChic625 (12:12:27 AM): nope, does it seem like it?
    anderson71288 (12:12:40 AM): maybe allittle......i dont know.
    StellarChic625 (12:13:04 AM): how so?
    anderson71288 (12:13:28 AM): i dont know.......just a feeling i guess
    anderson71288 (12:14:54 AM): but anyway.....
    anderson71288 (12:16:07 AM): ummm.......you stopped talkin
    StellarChic625 (12:16:15 AM): sorry
    StellarChic625 (12:16:16 AM): erm
    StellarChic625 (12:16:28 AM): I went shopping for a little bit, got like 4 new shirts
    anderson71288 (12:16:37 AM): sweet
    anderson71288 (12:17:07 AM): pick up lots of guys at the store.........lol
    StellarChic625 (12:17:31 AM): not quite lol
    StellarChic625 (12:17:55 AM): we weren't shopping for very long though 'cause my dad calls and is like "john cut his finger off!"
    anderson71288 (12:18:00 AM): i love you
    StellarChic625 (12:18:05 AM): I love you too
    StellarChic625 (12:18:33 AM): so we hurried home and he hadn't cut his finger off, he had just put a pretty big slice in it
    anderson71288 (12:18:51 AM): wow that sucks
    StellarChic625 (12:19:06 AM): eh, he's alright lol
    StellarChic625 (12:19:14 AM): he got out of changing diapers so he didn't mind
    anderson71288 (12:19:22 AM): lol
    anderson71288 (12:21:05 AM): man i cant wait till you get back
    StellarChic625 (12:21:23 AM): me neither
    anderson71288 (12:21:59 AM): so when are you coming back again?
    StellarChic625 (12:22:53 AM): I'm still not positive if it's Saturday or Sunday
    anderson71288 (12:24:09 AM): sweet
    anderson71288 (12:24:26 AM): your sure nothing is wrong?....
    anderson71288 (12:24:53 AM): im sorry i dont mean to keep bothering you, you just seem different tonight or maybe its just me
    StellarChic625 (12:25:06 AM): no, I'm fine
    StellarChic625 (12:25:15 AM): erm, tired I guess, but nothing is bothering me
    anderson71288 (12:25:45 AM): okay then sorry
    StellarChic625 (12:26:45 AM): it's alright
    anderson71288 (12:27:20 AM): i guess im getting to that paraniod phase.......sorry.
    StellarChic625 (12:27:50 AM): it's alright
    StellarChic625 (12:27:53 AM): don't worry about it
    StellarChic625 (12:27:58 AM): you have nothing to be paranoid about
    StellarChic625 (12:28:05 AM): I love you and that's not changing
    anderson71288 (12:28:47 AM): i know its just vacation just seems to be a hott spot of girls cheating on me and im really not worried about it with you.......i dont know im a girl dont listen to me
    StellarChic625 (12:29:14 AM): it's alright hun
    StellarChic625 (12:29:26 AM): I haven't even talked to anyone besides family here
    StellarChic625 (12:29:40 AM): oh wait, I talked to a waitress lol
    anderson71288 (12:30:12 AM): a WAITRESS? damn now i know im screwed........lol
    StellarChic625 (12:30:23 AM): I know
    StellarChic625 (12:31:16 AM): and I told her I wanted water and pork chops
    anderson71288 (12:31:55 AM): damn that most be code for lets go in the back and get some.........lol
    StellarChic625 (12:32:09 AM): totally
    anderson71288 (12:32:20 AM): gross......i will have to kick her ass
    anderson71288 (12:32:56 AM): lol
    StellarChic625 (12:33:19 AM): I was supposed to tell you that they have some fine pickins' at Walmart at 11:30 on a Monday night though
    StellarChic625 (12:33:24 AM): there was some total hotties lol
    StellarChic625 (12:33:52 AM): if only I thought a bunch of red necked people were hot
    anderson71288 (12:34:03 AM): ic......
    anderson71288 (12:34:58 AM): thats my fav........rednecks really turn me on......i think their tractors sexy......
    StellarChic625 (12:35:40 AM): totally
    StellarChic625 (12:35:57 AM): that's actually been my theme song since i've been down here
    StellarChic625 (12:36:07 AM): and I walk around in my tied up flannel shirts
    anderson71288 (12:36:34 AM): do ya now? sounds just like you
    StellarChic625 (12:36:54 AM): yup
    StellarChic625 (12:37:09 AM): a whole other side of me comes out when I'm down here lol
    anderson71288 (12:37:46 AM): hmm......im going to have to think again about coming down there with you next year
    anderson71288 (12:37:59 AM): lol just playin......i would go anywhere with you
    StellarChic625 (12:40:01 AM): uh huh lol
    StellarChic625 (12:40:29 AM): what about show choir trips? lol
    anderson71288 (12:40:53 AM): sounds good to me
    anderson71288 (12:41:12 AM): babe if theirs a you in it than id do anything...........lol
    StellarChic625 (12:42:15 AM): would you go to the gyno with me?
    StellarChic625 (12:42:16 AM): haha
    anderson71288 (12:43:57 AM): .........did i saw almost? cuz i think i forgot to
    StellarChic625 (12:45:03 AM): hahaha
    anderson71288 (12:45:45 AM): If that ain't love then I don't know what love is


    anderson71288 (12:45:52 AM): sorry.......that song kicks ass
    StellarChic625 (12:45:58 AM): haha, that it does
    StellarChic625 (12:47:23 AM): aren't you glad your awesome girlfriend listens to good music?
    StellarChic625 (12:47:25 AM): haha j/k
    anderson71288 (12:48:13 AM): well i am glad i have an awesome girlfriend but i wouldnt go as far as "good" music...........
    anderson71288 (12:48:14 AM): lol just j/k
    StellarChic625 (12:48:22 AM): uh huh
    StellarChic625 (12:48:34 AM): like your music is?
    StellarChic625 (12:48:36 AM):
    anderson71288 (12:49:00 AM): um...........
    anderson71288 (12:49:05 AM): i love you......
    anderson71288 (12:49:17 AM): o and my music kicks ass
    StellarChic625 (12:49:20 AM): I love you too
    anderson71288 (12:49:24 AM): lol
    StellarChic625 (12:49:31 AM): and some of your music is good
    anderson71288 (12:49:54 AM): if by some you mean all.
    anderson71288 (12:50:10 AM): and a half
    StellarChic625 (12:50:27 AM): you're a half
    StellarChic625 (12:50:56 AM): ...half of a great couple
    StellarChic625 (12:50:58 AM): ooooh lol
    StellarChic625 (12:51:02 AM): <---loser
    anderson71288 (12:51:08 AM): no without you i'd only be a half.............
    StellarChic625 (12:53:22 AM): lol
    StellarChic625 (12:53:24 AM): we're dorks
    anderson71288 (12:54:30 AM): well if lovin you makes me a dork you otta go ahead and by me a pocket protector............
    StellarChic625 (12:54:44 AM): haha
    anderson71288 (12:56:43 AM): and i will wipp out my overalls and glasses as well
    StellarChic625 (12:56:54 AM): oof, that would be dead sexy
    anderson71288 (12:57:00 AM): i know
    anderson71288 (12:59:33 AM): your dead sexy
    StellarChic625 (1:00:00 AM): lol thanks
    anderson71288 (1:00:42 AM): well im going to make sure i dont work sunday
    StellarChic625 (1:01:02 AM): are you scheduled to work sunday?
    anderson71288 (1:01:15 AM): i havent got the schedule yet
    anderson71288 (1:01:52 AM): i'll just get fired or somethin..........lol
    StellarChic625 (1:01:59 AM): noooo
    StellarChic625 (1:02:05 AM): bad idea
    anderson71288 (1:02:51 AM): just jokin
    anderson71288 (1:03:39 AM): so you got any more good stories?
    StellarChic625 (1:04:41 AM): erm, not that I can think of
    StellarChic625 (1:05:45 AM): you?
    anderson71288 (1:06:30 AM): not really.......
    StellarChic625 (1:08:55 AM): woo, we have exciting lives
    anderson71288 (1:09:18 AM): well not other than each other
    StellarChic625 (1:09:23 AM): haha
    anderson71288 (1:11:00 AM): man im tired tonight
    StellarChic625 (1:11:16 AM): I've been tired like all week
    anderson71288 (1:11:44 AM): i wouldnt doubt it, its not easy being as pretty as you are
    StellarChic625 (1:11:57 AM): haha
    anderson71288 (1:14:52 AM): hey i will brb
    StellarChic625 (1:14:59 AM): mmkay
    anderson71288 (1:34:51 AM): i love you........ppppchhhh
    StellarChic625 (1:35:26 AM): I love you too
    StellarChic625 (1:35:30 AM): you were gone for a while
    anderson71288 (1:35:50 AM): im sorry i didnt mean to leave you for so long
    StellarChic625 (1:36:04 AM): it's alright
    StellarChic625 (1:37:32 AM): what were you doing?
    anderson71288 (1:38:12 AM): just cleanin up a bit.......and i was going to get some food since i havent ate today but i decided i wasnt hungry
    StellarChic625 (1:41:32 AM): fun fun
    anderson71288 (1:42:04 AM): yep........ what did you do while i was gone?..........
    StellarChic625 (1:42:33 AM): looked at sexy costumes haha
    anderson71288 (1:42:59 AM): what?
    StellarChic625 (1:43:12 AM): lol sexy costumes
    anderson71288 (1:43:22 AM): for what?
    StellarChic625 (1:43:36 AM): lol I dunno, just being bored
    StellarChic625 (1:43:45 AM): well, actually
    StellarChic625 (1:44:00 AM): the costumes are for me and you
    StellarChic625 (1:44:03 AM): haha
    anderson71288 (1:44:06 AM): like halloween costumes or like dress up bedroom costumes?
    anderson71288 (1:44:10 AM): ic
    anderson71288 (1:44:42 AM): well i dont think you need to wear a costume.......lol
    anderson71288 (1:44:53 AM): i like you more than enough now
    anderson71288 (1:45:03 AM): lol
    StellarChic625 (1:46:02 AM): haha, bedroom costumes
    anderson71288 (1:47:41 AM): oic.......hmmm...........sexy
    anderson71288 (1:47:43 AM): lol
    StellarChic625 (1:48:00 AM): lol hrm, let me find a good one to show you haha
    anderson71288 (1:48:19 AM): do you have it on cuz that would be the best......lol
    StellarChic625 (1:48:29 AM): haha, not quite
    StellarChic625 (1:48:44 AM): they're like expensive
    anderson71288 (1:49:46 AM): oic
    anderson71288 (1:50:04 AM): a skirt is all the costume i need........lol
    StellarChic625 (1:50:23 AM): haha
    StellarChic625 (1:50:37 AM): http://www.pinupgirlclothing.com/sedegiadhaco.html
    StellarChic625 (1:50:44 AM): haha, there's a good one for me
    anderson71288 (1:52:21 AM): ive decided you have to much time on your hands.......lol. but you would look pretty damn sexy in it.......
    anderson71288 (1:52:22 AM): lol
    StellarChic625 (1:52:33 AM): hahaha
    StellarChic625 (1:52:58 AM): I was actually just looking at the shoes on the website but the costumes are always fun to look at lol
    anderson71288 (1:53:08 AM): uh huh im sure
    anderson71288 (1:54:42 AM): right so this is a bit different than what i thought we were going to talk about tonight....lol
    StellarChic625 (1:54:50 AM): haha
    StellarChic625 (1:55:02 AM): what'd you think we were going to talk about?
    anderson71288 (1:55:55 AM): i dont know what we usually talk about......you know like how much i love you and .............the normal stuff but this is totally random and i like it....lol
    StellarChic625 (1:56:31 AM): haha
    StellarChic625 (1:57:53 AM): they have a pimp costume haha
    StellarChic625 (1:58:36 AM): and fantasy costumes, like rainbow bright and uh, alice in wonderland haha
    anderson71288 (1:59:42 AM): thats sweet
    StellarChic625 (2:03:40 AM): meow?
    anderson71288 (2:04:06 AM): mrow
    StellarChic625 (2:05:06 AM): I miss youuu
    anderson71288 (2:05:42 AM): i miss you too baby.......theirs not a minute that goses by that i dont think about you
    StellarChic625 (2:06:07 AM): ditto
    anderson71288 (2:08:42 AM): i cant wait till you get back
    anderson71288 (2:09:00 AM): that two day kiss is going to end up lasting two months
    StellarChic625 (2:09:08 AM): haha
    StellarChic625 (2:09:26 AM): I won't mind
    anderson71288 (2:09:53 AM): o and neither will i
    StellarChic625 (2:12:21 AM): agh...it's like forever away
    anderson71288 (2:12:37 AM): its okay
    anderson71288 (2:16:34 AM): some things are even more amazing when you wait for them............
    StellarChic625 (2:16:47 AM): lol thats true
    StellarChic625 (2:17:11 AM): lol thats like... the story of our relationship
    anderson71288 (2:18:42 AM): hey it worked out tho right?
    StellarChic625 (2:19:50 AM): yes indeed
    anderson71288 (2:21:44 AM): i mean it had to for me to be dreamin everynight of my beautiful girlfriend
    StellarChic625 (2:22:08 AM): teehee
    StellarChic625 (2:22:13 AM): I love you
    anderson71288 (2:23:08 AM): i love you more than you'll ever know baby
    StellarChic625 (2:23:45 AM): I feel the same
    anderson71288 (2:24:55 AM):
    StellarChic625 (2:28:58 AM):
    StellarChic625 (2:32:11 AM): gah, I don't think DACC is gonna have all the classes I need for pre-pharm
    anderson71288 (2:32:42 AM): thats unfortunate.......
    anderson71288 (2:34:52 AM): dang whats your other choice?
    StellarChic625 (2:34:59 AM): I have nooo ida
    StellarChic625 (2:35:01 AM): *idea
    StellarChic625 (2:35:11 AM): I know Eastern has the courses I'll need
    StellarChic625 (2:35:26 AM): so a year at Dacc, a year at eastern, 4 years at SIUE
    StellarChic625 (2:35:33 AM): possibly
    anderson71288 (2:36:07 AM): dang......
    StellarChic625 (2:36:31 AM): gah
    StellarChic625 (2:36:37 AM): I hate growing up
    anderson71288 (2:37:08 AM): yep....
    anderson71288 went away at 2:37:38 AM.
    anderson71288 returned at 2:37:39 AM.
    StellarChic625 (2:37:44 AM): meow?
    anderson71288 (2:37:48 AM): yes?
    anderson71288 (2:37:50 AM): mrow
    StellarChic625 (2:37:56 AM): you went away
    anderson71288 (2:38:11 AM): i know....i wanted to save a message real quick
    StellarChic625 (2:38:44 AM): ohh ok
    StellarChic625 (2:38:54 AM): wait, I might be in luck lol
    StellarChic625 (2:40:15 AM): sorry, I decided to look all this up at like 3 am because I figured I should probably check it out before saying all my plans and having them turn out completely different
    anderson71288 (2:40:40 AM): okay then......lol
    StellarChic625 (2:40:47 AM): ...
    anderson71288 (2:41:18 AM): i hope you can go to dacc
    StellarChic625 (2:41:34 AM): I'll be able to go for at least a year
    StellarChic625 (2:42:20 AM): and I'm pretty sure that I can work everything out to go the 2 years but that still leaves 4 years at a school that's like 3-4 hours away from here
    anderson71288 (2:43:05 AM): i think after 2 years of dating we could start makin more serious decisions......
    anderson71288 (2:43:30 AM): like i dont know......that came out wrong......lol
    StellarChic625 (2:43:35 AM): haha I know
    StellarChic625 (2:43:40 AM): I'm just saying
    StellarChic625 (2:43:52 AM): I don't plan that far ahead with this type of thing, no offense
    anderson71288 (2:44:00 AM): i know.....
    anderson71288 (2:44:43 AM): i like to think about it cuz i dont ever plan on it messin up but hey thats just me and thats probally half the reason i get hurt....lol
    anderson71288 (2:45:30 AM): okay im going to make you feel uncomfortable.....ummmm.....i like the rain how bout you?
    StellarChic625 (2:45:44 AM): lol it's fine, you won't make me feel uncomfortable
    StellarChic625 (2:45:59 AM): rain is ok, I couldn't lay out 'cause of it today though
    StellarChic625 (2:46:19 AM): and I know what you mean 'cause I've been in the same situation before
    anderson71288 (2:46:30 AM): how is that?
    StellarChic625 (2:46:47 AM): planning for something and it not turning out as planned
    anderson71288 (2:47:11 AM): well with me anyplan you make wont get messed up on my part.
    anderson71288 (2:48:00 AM): i just enter a relationship not thinking of an end so i think about things like two years from now and stuff like that cuz im a girl
    StellarChic625 (2:48:39 AM): lol I used to think that way
    StellarChic625 (2:48:57 AM): but then I started trying to be rational because I got screwed over
    anderson71288 (2:51:00 AM): well ive been screwed over plenty of times......im just positve and i know theirs a girl meant for me and i can think things like this cuz if it works out it does if not it was meant to be....i think your that girl to me.....we've always meant to get together and never have and finally we somehow got drawn back to eachother and we think of eachother as the most wonderful people ever.....
    anderson71288 (2:52:24 AM): see now im freakin you out.........
    StellarChic625 (2:53:11 AM): no you're not
    StellarChic625 (2:53:25 AM): it's fine, I've never had a guy say something that forward to me though
    anderson71288 (2:53:38 AM): im sorry
    StellarChic625 (2:53:45 AM): no, it's ok
    StellarChic625 (2:53:48 AM): don't be sorry
    StellarChic625 (2:53:52 AM): I'm glad you feel that way
    anderson71288 (2:54:14 AM): what do you think about it honestly?
    StellarChic625 (2:54:34 AM): I think we could make it
    StellarChic625 (2:56:46 AM): I agree that it's just like awesome how everything worked out and yeah, gah I can't like put stuff into words
    anderson71288 (2:57:26 AM): have at it......you can be as blunt as you want.....you dont have to worry about hurting my feeling or anything
    StellarChic625 (2:57:35 AM): I dunno
    StellarChic625 (2:57:42 AM): I just always plan ahead and then it never works out
    StellarChic625 (2:57:57 AM): and then later on I'm like hey, I had planned this with *blank*
    StellarChic625 (2:58:05 AM): and I don't want that to happen with you
    anderson71288 (2:58:29 AM): well wether you plan it or not im still going to be there......
    anderson71288 (2:58:38 AM): if you want me too be
    StellarChic625 (2:59:02 AM): I do want you to be there
    anderson71288 (2:59:03 AM): because its all your decision cuz ive made mine and it will stay that same
    anderson71288 (3:00:38 AM): when i told you i loved you i could never have meant it more
    anderson71288 (3:01:41 AM): like even when it came to lindsey i dont know if i really loved her or i was just scared i couldnt find anyone else........and with you i wouldnt rather be with anyone else
    anderson71288 (3:03:00 AM): okay we gots to change conversations......i really think im weirding you out
    anderson71288 (3:03:26 AM): your probally like.....o god what did i get into i have a crazy ass bf
    anderson71288 (3:03:35 AM): lol
    StellarChic625 (3:03:45 AM): no, you're not, really, sorry I'm just distracted with everything
    StellarChic625 (3:04:46 AM): I really love you Derek and I do want things to work out I just hate planning the future with something like this because the minute I start to have faith that it'll actually happen will be right about when you decide you're not happy with me anymore
    anderson71288 (3:08:11 AM): thats what i want tho for you to have faith in me and trust me but i know that will take time....im not like the other guys you've dated...i would do anything for you........i dont wanna pressure you into anything you dont want to do. i would probally feel the same way if the tables where turned....like i said with everything else i will just have to prove it. and i dont want you to just straight out believe me.......i want to work for you....because you deserve the best..and i will do my best to make sure you get what i can give.....even tho i know you could do better than me.
    StellarChic625 (3:10:36 AM): well I do trust you and such, I just don't trust the future, as stupid as that sounds, and I don't even deserve you and I don't believe it gets any better than you because you're amazing times like a million
    anderson71288 (3:12:16 AM): well i know what you mean and im sorry i went off the deep end, its just without you here i do alot of thinking about you and like anyone else i like to picture how it would be if we did work out...you know like daydreamin and stuff
    StellarChic625 (3:13:23 AM): it's alright, you don't have to apologize, I'm the one that brought up the whole 3 years from now thing, and I've daydreamed about stuff like that too, so it's ok if you do it
    StellarChic625 (3:13:32 AM): makes me not feel like as much of a retard
    anderson71288 (3:14:14 AM): hey its cool.......i like to dream. that and you are what gets me throught the day.....lol
    StellarChic625 (3:16:08 AM): lol
    StellarChic625 (3:16:10 AM):
    anderson71288 (3:16:51 AM): umm well now that i have creeped you out enough tonight i think i am going to bed
    anderson71288 (3:18:33 AM): hello?
    StellarChic625 (3:20:04 AM): sorry I was in the other room
    StellarChic625 (3:20:12 AM): and you didn't creep me out
    anderson71288 (3:20:40 AM): maybe not
    anderson71288 (3:21:02 AM): well im going to bed
    anderson71288 (3:21:11 AM): goodnight
    StellarChic625 (3:21:21 AM): alrighty, ttyl, I love you, goodnight
    anderson71288 (3:22:11 AM): i love you too baby more than you'll ever know........goodnight and sweetdreams.....and dont worry my dreams will be the best cuz they are always of you
    anderson71288 went away at 3:22:22 AM.


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