|Current mood:|| depressed|
|Current music:||Anthem of Our Dying Day.. Story of the Year; Page Ave.|
Again, it's been a while since I've wrote here. So let's see.. where to begin..
Well, last Friday, I went on a date. I know, I know. I've been dating since I was 15 years old, but that was my first date. It was awesome. I went out with Chris Piland. He's such a sweetie. :o) First, we went to see the movie "The Village". OH. MY. GOD. Do NOT waste your money. LOL. After the movie, we went to dinner at Denny's, which was nice :o) LOL.. I picked on the way he ate sooooo badly :oP After dinner, we went back to his house, to grab the basketball, and headed to a park! How cool is that?! LOL.. I'm such a dork :oP We messed around there for a while, and sat on the swings and I got his whole life story :oP LOL.. that was interesting.. Then we headed over to the basketball courts, and played "Around The World".. omg.. fun game, but I totally got my ass kicked. LOL. I was only on like, the second block or something, and he had gone all the way around the court.. LOL. "Nothing but net!" "REALLY?!" "Yeah, that's all it hit" hahahahahah.. good times. After that, we drove around for a bit, and headed back to his house. He showed me some of his games and such and then put in the BEST dvd ever! (Aqua Teen Hunger Force) :oP I was sitting on his bed, and he was on the floor, but I feel asleep!! I couldn't believe it. I felt horrible, and kind of embarrassed.. LOL. Well, then the trouble started.. my brother was missing in action, and they were supposed to bring me home that night. Turns out, my TOTALLY AWESOME friend, Lee, came and picked me up at 4am.. what a sweetie. :o) *I'll hug you next time for it.. LOL*
So that was about the newest info.. cept fooooooooor.... KEVIN!! yay!! Kevin makes me happy!! :o) He's like the best guy that I've ever met!!! I can't wait to be with him. I hope so bad that we can build something from this. Move over Rich, your about to be kicked out of my memory.. :o) (at least we can still be friends)
Oh.. speaking of Rich :o\ I haven't heard from him in a long time. I'm concerned.. but I don't want to invade his privacy.. and such. I mean, we are supposed to be "friends". Why does it hurt so badly?? I mean.. the other day, my brother confronted me, and asked me "Dude, what the hell, just get the fuck over him". Well, it's not that easy. Because he's the first guy that I've actually loved. With all of my heart. And now I have to live with this.. One night while we were laying in his bed talking, I told him that I loved him so much, and asked him to never break up with me. Well, he didn't. He kept his promise. But I broke it. And now, there's like no way to get him back. I'm afriad of getting another boyfriend, because I know that I still love Rich with all my heart.. and it's going to take a while to get used to someone else.. and I don't think another guy should need to listen to me bitching about an ex.. that I still love.. I hope that Kevin is my ticket out of this heart break.. I swear I'd never hurt him... :o\ Now I'm kinda depressed...