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aloha joey in florida!
alright well joey left for florida this morning. and all i did last night was think about him. i had sum company over last night and all i wanted was for them to leave so i could cry about joey. and i did. i just cried like a stupid baby. b/c now i wont see him until summer time. i guess i'll never kno y he didnt come over last night but im sure his dad had a reason. and i kno he prolly tried to get here no matter what but sumthing must have come up with him and his dad. b/c on thursday night, all he kept saying was that *no matter what* he was gonna come over here. and all this week we talked about the stuff he was gonna bring over to keep us occupied. well his dad and my mom have been best friends since they were my age. and they r still best friends but we never see him, only at christmas. but i have these old pictures from like 10 years ago of me and joey and all the other parents drinking and partying LOL and i told him i was gonna show him the pictures of friday. well see, i havent seen him for almost 2 years. and ever since the christmasy holiday started, ive been wanting my mom to call them and have em come over so him and i can talk and bond u kno. so just outta nowhere they stop by on winter break. and knowing how nervous and shy i am, it took me 10 minutes to gather up sum guts to go and say hi to him. and my mom kept embarassing me right in front of him. but eventually we both finally talked and we had fun and i got his screen name. so all i did since then, was id talk to him from 11:00 to almost 3:30 in the morning. and i learned to find out he was as shy as me. so when my mom told them to come over the day after new years, he kept telling me i cant b shy and we have to talk. and he was saying he'd bring over pictures, drawings he did, sum dark poems he wrote, and his portable DVD player. and he was gonna bring Rage Against the Machine Live over on DVD and we were gonna watch. and he said he was gonna give me a recent picture of him for me to keep. and i was gonna give him my graduation picture. and all day yesterday, i was hoping he was gonna make it cuz i was so excited. but then again i had this really bad gut feeling that he was never gonna make it. and sure enuff they didnt. but when i talked to him online i really got to know him which was weird b/c i thought id never know him like that, since we've been so distant since we were little. but when i saw him last sunday he really changed since i saw him 2 years ago on christmas eve. and i changed to. he had a ramones shirt on :) and he turned punk. he was into all the heavy stuff like korn and things i like. but he was more into the old punk, and so was i kind of. but i am more into the *new* punk i guess he called it. but we just chilled in my room and listened to music and talked about it. ive never actually talked about music with sumone b4. ive just heard ppl criticize my music. but it was so awesome. and i had a mad crush on him to. which i told him online, and he said he liked me to. but he was saying we couldnt show it when our parents would b around on friday. but i never got to see him :( if i saw him, i was at least hoping for a nice hug and a kiss goodbye, which he prolly wouldnt care about anyways. b/c i mean, florida is so far away. i wouldnt b flipping out like this, if only i had a way to keep in touch with him. b/c i mean he has a computer at his mom's house in florida but she never lets him online. he needed a cable or sumthing then shed let him on. but he needs a job to get the money for the cable. hed better get his lazy ass out to get a job and get one! cuz i told him since im the laziest person in the world and i can get a job, that means he can. but mom said if i cant talk to him online, she said shed call big joey (his dad. they r both named joey.........confusing) and ask for his address. he'll think im a stalker! but it was my moms idea. i dont care. anyway that i can talk to him is fine with me. he reminds me of brad SOOO much. he almost looks just like him; the hair, eyes, face, skin; except he had a facial hair thingy around his lip. but i dont like facial hair. ewwww. but he told me he has a g/f in florida and he was saying hes still a virgin but he was gonna go home and fuck her. well yeah. thats also all i could think about last night. when he gets home he'll just go fuck his g/f and ::poof:: ill never talk to him for another 5 friggin months. but i hope i can find sum kind of way to talk to him. ::sigh::
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