|Current mood:|| crushed|
|Current music:||The Early November - Baby Blue|
I Don't Want You To Love Me Anymore.
Well crap...it's been forever. So i don't even know where to start. It's been pretty crazy. Hmm...and friends come and go. It's wild. Then few Sundays ago some people from Sandy tried to hit me and my cat with their car. =\
Man i've been way depressed Hm....Brandon is being mean to me again. I don't know what his fuckin' problem is. It's weird, he'll be mean then he'll be nice and pretend nothing ever happened. I don't even know. He has to be bi-polar. So I went to The Used..and Jase got kicked out for punching some guy in the face. After the show me and Nanci headed up to my house and umm..we called Jase to see if he wanted to hang out. So we kicked it at my house and got way drunk as fuck. Then like i just got way depressed and just started to cut my arm deep. Way deep, blood everywhere, on my hands, arms, jeans and my floor. It was scary. And i don't remember. =\ I guess when everyone left I was just way drunk & i don't know what made me do it. It's weird. I just couldn't believe it was deep & i remember I called my friend Derek crying & he was actually being nice & i don't remember the rest I think i passed out on the phone who knows. I just woke up & didn't remember anything, Derek told me what i told him. Crazy Tonka.