|Current mood:|| crushed|
|Current music:||sick transit gloria- brand new|
i dont even know why i try anymore....how can someone judge someone else on their FIRST IMPRESSION.......everything that i do is seemingly wrong to everyone, and i just can’t take it anymore. ppl expect WAY too much of me, and i just can’t give everyone exactly what they want.. me and joe- 1&1/2 months.. umm yeaaaaaaa..... i duno.. i cant take the pressure of being in a relationship on top of all the other shit thats going on.. i truly do love him, but at the same time i don’t thing im good enuf to have a bf who actually likes me back.... im so friggen confused.. and other ppl tell me shit that i personally could have really used in the end of october!!!! i screw everyone’s life up, and im sick and tired of all the drama i cause..... so i GIVE THE HELL UP!!!!!!! things were so much easier before i was born.....
i miss ppl from my past, and i wish i could just get everything back to how it was last year.. i want a break from EVERYTHING at this point...... **no love, crystal...**