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Inventory at Vistony
Man! This sucks. Every time that I take a moment to write I'm always at work. I'ma get internet in my house soon enough. These days we should have it.
Right now I'm at work in an Inventory. Everyone's bitching cuz we keep counting and counting and nothing fits. Nothings right. We're all just waiting for everything to be finished. Sitting around..chatting. I wanna get home already.. and see my son. My baby's waiting for me at home.
I wanted to go out and shop for x-mas today, but I'm here...at the office waiting for the systems engineer to finish counting up everything thats in the storage. I already told my friend, Jose, to go shopping tomorrow. We're gonna go with some other people cuz I haven't gotten anything for anyone. Just shoes for Max, Gabriel, and Me. I love my shoes they're so cute. And Max's shoes. They're mad cute too♥!
So I already told my boss that I'm quitting. I don't know if I've mentioned it before, but yeah I already told my boss that I'm leaving. I'ma start working with my sister at this other company in February.
My brother already came from the US, but it seems he doesn't like the way that we live cuz he seems a little unhappy, or uncomfortable. Honestly I feel as if he came from like another world. I don't know what happened to him that he doesn't want to return to the US. I don't understand how he could feel like that when I'm dying to return. To see the places that I grew up in. To see my friends.. or the only ones that I still talk to which is like only one. I want to take my son to live somewhere better. I don't know. I feel like nobody can understand me right now.
I have a boyfriend, and he's nice and all, but I still don't feel comfortable enough to tell him everything that I have inside my head. Everything that I'm thinking. My future plans. I don't know how to get started. I was talking to my friend today during the whole inventory about my doubts, my fears, my confusions and well, all he could was listen to me. He was telling me too about his wife, his family, everything. We talked about my boyfriend too cuz he knows him more years than I do. I honestly don't know what to think about him. I'm a little confused. See, I haven't been with anyone since John and I don't know if I can trust him. If I can believe him when he tells me that he's not just playing with me, when he tells me that he wants a serious relationship. At first I straight out told him that I didn't beleive him, but I don't know what's going on. He's so nice, and respectful. He takes me out and listens to me. Eventhough he talks more than I do lol. But when I tell him anything he's always there. He calls me, he send me txt msgs to my celly. As soon as I get outta here I know he's gonna be waiting for me to take me home. He's really sweet, but I honestly can't say that I trust him enough to say that I'd do anything for him or anything. Yeah, well, the other day I had this little issue with his ex-g/f that works here too, but she works in another area. Yeah I felt a bit uncomfortable cuz she was all asking me if I was dating him. I didn't want to talk about it so I just told her no cuz honestly at that moment I didn't know if we were together or not. We were just dating but there was nothing else. Now we are.
Aside from that, I miss Max right now. I want to get home as soon as possible and take some cash out my bank account to go shopping tomorrow. I want this X-mas to be nice, taking advantage of the fact that my family's together again.
I have a headache...and it looks like we're going to be here till 7:00.
I can't wait to stop working here. I hate saying it but it's true. I'm sorry but yeah man. I feel so stressed right now. I wanna go work closer to my house. I have a headache right now. I wanna sleep it all away.... I wanna work only 8 hours and never have to work on sundays. It doesn't matter how much they'll pay me for coming to work on a sunday. It doesn¡t justify the time that I don't spend with my son, with my family.
Anywayz..I'ma go chat while I wait for these people to finish.