I guess you can't hold on to something that isn't there anymore.
Maybe its just me.. but I don't like losing friends. I don't care how much they wrong you or hurt you. Life is to short to lose friends over stupid things. Yes, a friend to me.. is someone who will be there for me when I'm upset, be true and faithful. But honestly.. where do you actually find one of those? A friend is also someone you smile, laugh and have fun with and are your self around. I don't know what to say anymore, my emotions are so stirred up and I just want to cry.. but I can't.. theres something wrong with me.. I just can't cry anymore. All the tears are gone. I want to be loved again. I want my best friend back. I want her boyfriend to stop being an immauture asshole who treats me like shit seeing as how I was his ex-girlfriend. I want my bset friend to stop changing in to something shes not. I want things to go back to normal. I want to smile, I want to have fun. I want to stop waking up every morning and be thinking "Wow, what bad shit can happen today?" I don't know what else can possibly go wrong in my life, I honestly don't. I am the worst person in the world right now, maybe I'm the one who needs the reality check.