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| Current music: | Hawthorn Heights- Ohio is for lovers |
a few random thoughts...wouldnt have it any other way.
first of all, i hate knowing things when u cant tell ur best friend.
next: i hate when people talk shit about a good friend of yours, and you cant stick up for them because its just not the right place and time, and you just cant tell them that they dont know what theyre talking about so they need to shut the eff up because they just dont know...because they cant know.
sometimes i think i really miss grant, a lot, and other times, i forget that he exists.. but i guess i always wonder. On my generally 25-30 minute car rides home from the belleville child care center, i like to listen to some mellowish shit a lot, and a lot of mellowish music is about loved ones, or the lack there of, or the loss of... and it makes me yearn.
I hate when people think that they can be famous. I think its stupid. Why wont people just accept the blessed lives that they already have, and stop daydreaming all the time about what more they could have. You are not going to move to new york and get discovered, especially if you have no talent or anyhting that anyone would want to "discover" you for. Give up, love life. Love the one you have, be happy and thankful for it. Im not saying give up your dreams, just alter them to make them realistic. My life dream is to be a teacher, im workin on it.. and in the meantime im doing the closest thing i can, workin in a daycare doin the pre-school program thing, and helping school kids have an amazing summer. I could talk about how i want to lose 90 pounds and move to new york and model.. at least i have the height already (thats the really hard part) but thats just dumb because it wont happen, and ill be happier as a lil ol teacher in some school.
I need to make a list of things i want to buy. There is a plethora of cd's and contact solutions and shit i need to get :o) target anyone?
I need to clean my room, maybe thats an unrealistic goal, my room will never be clean, and i just need to learn to live with that and deal with it... the really hard part is getting my mother to accept that.
I love my mom. She is the greatest. She doesnt really do anything spectacular, but shes always there for me and i just dont kno what id do without her. My mom got the Employee of the Year award at her work, and im proud of her. She is going to a conference recognition thing tomorrow, but i thought it was today, so when i woke up and thought she was gone, i cried. I thought she left without saying bye (yeah shes only gone for one night and 2 days, but still) so i was really upset. Then i realized she wasnt gone and id see her tonight so i put my happy face right back on :o) there it is.
I will never understand the male obsession with boobs.
i love priscilla hankins.
I think those were some random thoughts, im done for now... gotta get some sleep because i have a big day at the Belleville Child Care Center tomorrow :o) lol everydays a big day.
Goodnight Moon.
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