What do I do now.
I hate my life so much right now. Well. no. I hate where everything is. I hate "being friends" with Brett. I hate not talk to Jon. I hate the fact that I'm stuck on both these guys. I know for a fact that Brett and I will never be together, ever. I don't know where Jon is. I dont know what to do. Brett insist's on being here and talking to me and being friends with me. IT KILLS ME. I can't take it. I know i can't handle not having him in my life at all for the rest of my life. I think he feels the same way. There's no other way to keep eachother in our lives but to just be friends. But i can't handle being friend with him. AHHHHH
I just want things with me and Jon to go back to being really really close. :(