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So, I know i haven't written for a long time, but i use the myspace blog because it's more convenient (me being a myspace addict and all). John just told me something that's really starting to sink in. He might have gotten a girl pregnant. She's two months in and I guess they had a thing right around that time but what he didn't know is that she had a boyfriend at the time, so...it could be or it could not be...But he's told me it's the worst fucking day of his life. To think that if she has this kid and it does end up being his, that's his son until the day he dies. I mean, he's not the kind of guy to ignore something like that. you know, family? and i'm sure his relatives would be furious. maybe they'd want him to marry her? i don't know. but him telling me this....i dont know, i just want to be with him so badly. just like, be a thing, you know? together. he's out of my league. maybe i just want to be that friend he can rely on? what? i dont even know. i say this is love--not romantic love--but it could be. you know? I don't know. i can't even comprehend what kind of anguish he's putting himself through (having heard from this girl about the pregnancy.) she's from waukesha, too. yes, i love that boy but to him, we're merely aquaintances. oh well. i hope, for the both of them, that it's not his.
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