|Current mood:|| sad|
|Current music:||from first to last|
love hurts like a bitch...
time is moving oh so fast. why is it when the moments you wish would last forever fly by like its nothing , and the time that you wish would end takes the longest. joel is moving in 3 weeks. i swear it was yesterday when i first met him . the only good thing about him moving is that for the 3 weeks he has left here, hes stayin at a hotel right down the street from my house. i couldent imagine that him moving owuld hurt so much. i thaught to myself that it was going to be easy and we would try to see each other alot. but now that im relizing it. i dont know how its gunna work. i know that it will , i feel like we have an awesome understanding of each other. i have never been this happy with another person ever in my life. i looked on southwest and they have really cheap roundtrip flights to jacksonville and he is gunna try and make ii down here every couple months. god this is gunna be the hardest thing i have ever gone through. i have been crying to sleep every night this week. its horrible i just cant stop thinking about him not being here anymore. i mean were not breaking upo or anything but this is gunna be hard as fuck to make work. i know that if were supossed to be together things will work out, and so far we have worked alot of shyt out together. hes amazing. i dont know what im gunna do