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ok im like really pissed off.. and very emotional right now.. beacause he wrote me a letter tell in me how he dosnt know wut kind of relationship we have cus i nevre see him.. yea ok wutever.. and then hes like we dont even flirt or anything. im the one that has to make a move..ok thats bullshit.. and hes like if u ment anythign in ur gay ass letters then you would want to see me!!!! not being lazy to see me.. cus yesterday i wus likei dont feel like coming out when he came to get me and he got all pissed off about it! and today i told him well if i dont want to come outside then im not gonna come outside... stupid ass.... newaiz and he was like tellin neicie shyt like yea i should pretend i have another gurlfriend and put darcey on the phone with her and ''jsut to see wut darcey would do'' and if she is all sad about it then i wont break up with her.. omg wut kind of boyfriend woudl want to do that to someone they really like??wutever.. and he wus like tellin neicey that its ok if i flirt with another guy and its ok for him to touch me as long as he dont find out!! and he said its ok for him to flirt wiht other gurls ... WUTEVER!! oh yea ''while we're goin out'' randy thats sick!!! im sorry but if he ever liekd me then you knwo wut ... ugh he woudlnt be sayin that shyt!!!!!!!! and he wus like.. if u treated me the way u do now before you went to connecicut then i wouldve cheatedon you with these two gurls i had a chance to cheat on you wiht......omg .. hes like breakin my heart and soo not realizing it..........and he puts all the blame on me jsut because i didnt feeel like comin outside!!!! wutever. hes a jerk..... im not gonna waste my time on him like i didnt with bryan.......if i cry ima gonna regret i ever did cus no jerk is worth cryin over.....youll regret it later ..... and then he wus like coe to the pool and i wus like yea i will after i check the mail.. and i did go to the pool.. and when i wus there.. i wus standing outside the fence and troy wus right by the fence by a lawn chair and he looked at me and he was like something wrong? and i wus lke no.. and he was like then why u standin there.. in like an ignorant way.....UGH! that killed me!!! he called me over.. so we can tlak and then he pushes me away.1!!!!! so i was like Fuck you and like walked away............then we texted messaged over our cell phones and he was like stop texting me you crazy bastard im trying to talk to ashley.. and this is one of the gurls who was there for him to cheat wit me on.. and then his other one said stop texting me i dont like you no more..........:'( i mean he jumped from likeing me to not likin me in fuckin less then 24 hours!!!! lol u tell me how thats fuckin possible.. and he blames everythign on me! and he was like im sry im not sayin we should be together but give me another chance and i wus like ill thiknn bout it.. and then he wus like im sry when im madd i say alot of things and iw su like ok. and then he was like is that it? i mean u didnt even say sry and at least i tryed and i wus like say sry for wut? wut did i do? and he wus like wut the fuck u talkin bout and i wus like wut the fuck u talkin bout! and then he was like its obvious you dont want to be together and i wus like no i dont i dont think we should be together.. and he was like wutever... and walked away.. yea.. yesterday when i ''did come out the house'' he pulled me aside and wus liek we need to ttalk.. and this was before all this of corse.. and then he was like how come u didnt come outside today. iw us like cus i was eatin. and he was like for 4 hours? and i wus like no i wus eating and then i took a shower and then i wus too lazy to come outside.. and then he was like is that it? i wus like yea and then he ws like o and walked away. and theni wus like um ok/ and then he was at the picni table sittin down and then desaray said darcey dont love u no more.. and he was like yea i know.. but she was jokin. and then i was like ye ai do and gave hima hug and he didnt even give me one back. ah etotally ignored me!!! and when his dad came he left without sayin anything. or givin me a hug!! he just left.. and no he dosnt want nothin to do with me....:'( i dunno wut to do..